love? is it born to be controlled?

love... it is something complicated for us to understand.... but, when we are really in love, we can disolve that compication and experience the sweet moments with joy and happiness. but, what will happen when someone that you love is controlling your life? is that something that we can call as sweet memory? is it something that we can be proud of? when you don't understand what is love, you tend to try to fall into it, but, when you already fell into it, you tend to escape from it. why is this happening? it is crystal clear that you dun understand what is LOVE!!!~ is it?? but.... you don't know what had happened... just imagine, whenever you are planning to go out and have some fun or even release tension with your friends, you beloved one doesn't let you go.... not enough with that, he'll present himself at the shopping mall that you are planning to go and walk through the whole shopping mall just to make sure that you are not there. besides that, he will access to your phone account and check you account just to make sure who did you text or call... where is the freedom for you?? we want something call love to present in our live, but, we cannot lose our freedom too... if the one that we love keep on doing the things that he likes to control us from doing this and that, then, what else can we do? just entertain him and leave the entertainment for ourself behind and locked it in a room? like that??? it is soooo not true!!~ why must he control you when you didn't even tend to control him and chain him with you all the time.... my dear.... love is something to be shared.... not some sort of reason for you to control the one that you love.... if you ever use the reason "do you love me? if you do... then please.... promise me.... bla bla bka....".... that kind of reason shall not appear in the world of love..... you can't control someone's will, body and heart.... if you keep on doing that, you have to prepare to lose the one that you love... remember that~

maple

dark clouds cast a shadow over our hearts
i listen intently to the feelings that have long been silenced
distinct and clear
just like a beautiful landscape
that can only be clearly seen in one's memories
can a heart that has been throughly wounded continue to love me?
i tried hard to hold your cold hands
the tenderness in the past
is locked in time
all that's left are sadness that cannot be dispered
longing is like maple leaves, slowly drifting down
i light the candle to warm this year end autumn
the aurora steals across the horizon
the north wind flits across the face that thinking of you
ashes from my burning heart falls like leaves
but i can never regain your familiar face again
longing is like maple leaves, slowly drifting down
why must i recover them all before the winter arrives?
my love for you transcends all the time
two streams of tears that were shed for the autumn's end
let the love flood through
i just want you by my side
can a heart that has been throughly wounded continue to love me?
i tried hard to hold your cold hands
the tenderness in the past
is locked in time
all that's left are sadness that cannot be dispered
the lush mountainside forest
withers in the north wind
i sway the windchime gently
attempting to awaken this abandoned love
snowflakes have already covered the ground
fearing that the maple leaves outside the window are already frozen