sorry~

i noe you for quite some time now....

tat day, seriously, i was too happy when i saw you....

everything went so well that day.... i was happy because i finally had the chance to meet you.... so, i talked to you for a while....

i din realized tat the word came out from my mouth.... seriously i din remembered a single thing, how, when and why i said such word and i said it to you... the only thing i noe was i am super and extremely happy when i got a chance to meet you....

i noe you had a lil problem with my mum.... ur mum knew bout it too... ur relationship wif my mum became a bit awkward....i noe tat....

i care bout you... tat's for sure.... i dunwan our friendship to end too... it's juza word.... and tat word juz made you sad.... i'm sorry... i din realized tat earlier... cuz, seriously, i never take u as a person like tat.... u r special in ur own way.... and everyone is special....

u r not wad i said tat day.... i am the one who are dumb because i can;t even control wad i'm saying.... tat's all... i'm sorry i made you sad, angry and hurt.... i'm sorry... tat's all i can say now...

u dun even wan to talk about tat anymore.... you doesn;t even wan to listen to me rite now.... u can't accept anything i say now.... it's ok.... u dun hav to...

i juz hope tat u r happy now... be happy my dear friend~ and once again, i'm sorry... i'm sorry~

truth??

hmm... i'm confused....

how am i suppose to know that everything that you told me are the truth??

it's not that i don't believe you... but, not everyone will tell everything to the other person... unless, you believe in him or her....yes, u told me everything.... the other person also told me everything... that person is saying about A, but, you were saying about B, so, should i trust A or B??? or both?? hmm.... both of you were talking about the same thing, but different descriptions and details.

sometimes, i know that particular person very well, and, of course, i'll trust him or her no matter what other people said about them.... but, after some time, i can't even differentiate which one is the truth... cuz, the person that talking to me is my best friend, and the person that he/she talking about is my bestfriend too... so, which side should i lean to?? can anyone answer my question?? can anyone help me to solve my doubtness and confusion??

hmm... i really can;t run away from confusion... cuz, confusion just come chasing me whenever i wanna escape from them... so, i guess, i'll just let it be that way then.... hmm~

friendship??

hmm... do anyone knows the true meaning lies beyong the word 'friendship'??

it's very normal when friends quarrel with each other.... it's normal when friends get angry with each other.... it's normal when friends laugh together... and it's also normal when friends are crying together...

bt... will it be normal when your friends started to ignore u? will it be normal when your friends started to forgot about you?

everyone will change... yes... i agree with that statement.... but, did everyone change into someone better??? or... worse??

friends were meant to be with each other.... friends are the people we need the most when we have any troubles besides our family.... friends are everything....

but... when they started to change, when they started to ignore and forget about you... what can you do??

yes... i can just say 'stop thinking bout them', 'stop wasting your time on them', 'they do not worth ur tears'.... but then.... you can't just do that... because you take them as your best friends ever....

to me, that kind of people doesn't worth your care, attention and love.... they are just a waste of time... and they just keep hurting their own best friend... those people are not suitable to be called as best friends.... but, they are called as HEARTBREAKERS.... that's their true faces....

anyway, they weren't the only person who lived in this big bog world... there are lots of them... everywhere.... you just have to let go of the bad ones, and open your heart for the new ones to go in.... i know it's hard... but... that's the only way to prevent you from getting hurt again... or... you can just stay in the circle... it's up to you anyway...

hmm~ so....friendship huh?? i don't understand that very much too... me too, have problems with my friends... but, at least, they would apologize to me whenever they know that they hurt me... they will take care of me and worry about me when i am sick... i am very happy to have them in my life.... and... me too, have met the worst friend ever... and, i decided to let go... after letting her go, i am happier... although sometimes i regret it, but, it's worth it.... cuz, that kind of friend will just draw me crazy everytime she opens her mouth... owh no... her eyes... ya... her eyes... i cannot bear it when i see her eyes... it's full of...hate... hmm... how can a person hate another person soooo much?? aren't they tired?? if it's me, i'll be extra tired... that's why i dun hate her... but, i just dun like her...

after saying it out, it feels much better...
i hope everyone is happe with their friends out there...
as for you, be strong my dear~ i'm always with you.... ^^