my heart~

due to some reasons.....
my heart starts to shrink....
or....
you might say.....
the door of my heart are closing...
bit by bit.....
i hope tat no other thing tat will make my heart burst...
it's... enough... by now....
too many things happened tat made my heart broke into pieces....
bt... somehow... i manage to stick it back...
bt still...
i'm badly injured....
inside......
hmm.......
lot's of things to think and to do.....

i'll miss you~ we'll miss you.......

not long ago....
whn i was getting ready to work, u would always got up from the bed n asked me, are you going to work???
whn i was tying my shoe laces, u would asked, who are going to send you to work?? may i follow???
hmm...... i miss those questions now....

last time......
when i was much younger....
i would lie to you tat i had stomachache... (actually i din finish my homework... lol~)
thn, u would came to school as fast as possible....
thn, took me to doctor.....
u would buy me my fav food and my fav kuih....
u would let me do everything tat i like.....
now, i miss the care tat u poured to me.....
eventhough i lied to u....

last time.....
when u talked to me bout my studies...
you would say tat u wan to look at me growing older and older....
u wan to see me to hold the certificates of success in my studies....
u would wan to see me going to work....
and u promised me u will....
however, u are not even here now....
although u can't wait till tat time, i would study harder and prove to you tat i can...
and i would make u proud.... i will...

last time......
whn u said tat u stay wif us when the house ready.....
i was happy....
cuz my wish was to stay wif u....
bt, u went away befoe the house even ready....
u went away before we gt the chance to spend ramadhan n raya together....
i am sad.....

few days back......
i was playing and joking wif you....
u usually dun like to take pictures....
but tat day, i said, why dun u take pic wif me??
i cn take a look at the pictures whn i miss you.....
u agreed.... u agreed....
and tat was the only picture tat i gt before u left me....
i would treasure tat...
forever....

hmm~~~ u left too soon~
too soon....
anyway, i miss you..........
and... we all will miss you....

angry or hurt???

hmmm....

i dunno hw to say this.....

wad am i feeling now??

angry??? or.... hurt????

i dunno.... i really dunno...
i'm running out of words...