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Too many things happened...
Too much pressure......
Too many disappointment....
Too many damages.......
I've stayed strong for a period of time~
Never thought of this day to come~
The feeling of lonliness, disappointment and sadness are bringing me down lil by lil~
I've pretended for a period of time....
'it's okay', 'i don't mind', 'i'm fine', 'i'm strong' can never stop my tears from running down anymore~
It's time for me to face all my mixed feelings, all of my depression.........
Well, i have to be independent no matter what....
up til the point where having no one to talk to will never bother me again....

Writers.....

I am sad....
Extremely sad......
if you don't want to stay with us, you can just say it out....
Why go through all the trouble to make up a story?
It's not logical to me.....
I've had enough of accusations and stories in my life....
I wouldn't need one from you....
This is not the first time....
Before this, i've seen and heard your stories that you said behind us.... (you talked too loud! - if they were meant to be secret, thn you should lower down yoir voice)
Now, i've seen ur acting and story telling skills right in front of my eyes.......
You are good!!
Why do you have to use someone else's name?
Why do you have to lie?
Why can't you just say out the truth??
WHY?!?!
I just don't understand why.........
Haih.......
I'm upset! Very very upset!
I thought people might change after some time....
BUT! You are toooooo old for a change!
Just............ Stop hurting others.......
They are the people who love you the most!
Think of their feelings!
You are not the only living creature on the earth~
We are not your tools........
Please.........
I beg you..........

Today's diary~

Well, I don't have anything special to do lately....
Therefore.. I'm quite bored..
Hmm.... I just got the news that my results will be out on 15th February...
Gaaaaaaah! I'm quite nervous now!
Haiz... I am not really sure of my performance for the past exams... Haih...
Hope I did not screw up....
Hmm... Well, i've been spending my time in front of my lappy, rewinding and re-watching all the chinese dramas lately since I don't know what's new... Kinda lame there...
Besides that, i've been watching idol maknae rebellion which is extremely funny! Haha XD
I started to be a fan of seunghyub from ftisland now.. He's hillarious!! XD
Well, besides that, i've been watching boyfriend's hello baby~
It's funny watching kids looking after kids! Hahahaha XD
I think.. They need some help! Haha XD
Hmm... I just remembered that I have some leftover transcriptions that I nees to finish off! Haih..
I'll try and finish them up by tomorrow~
Mummy said they're gonna claim the money next week.. Hmm...
well, anyway, i've been spending mucg time without doing anything, and now, i'm regreting because I did not search for any work.. Hmm...
it's late now... Haha XD
Gotta catch up with my sleep~~ hihi~
Goodnight everyone!!! XD

A date with Kaman~

It was nice meeting up with kaman today~
She's the one who I can talk about my studies and pressure that I have....
We're the same in some ways...
Especially when associated with work...
We cannot say 'no'~
We will volunteer ourselves to do the work in order to get the best result....
We will do anything as long as we can get the wprk done...
So, practically,.we are quite the same!
Hahahahaha
So, we had a long talk today....
And it was nice to see her!!
Till we meet again Kaman!! XD
Oh! And thanks for the little present!!
I'll treasure it! =D

Date with Atifa and Maryam~

Well, since we are back together, we went out and had somw fun!
On monday, we both stayed at atifa's house, chating all day long and watched sinister together!! Haha XD
The next day, we went to AEON Rawang and atifa shopped for her things!
Then, we headed to empangan kkb and spent some lovely time thr...
We took some pictures too!
Hehe... It's been a while...
I really miss them~ hehe~

A date with Karthi~

Haha XD
I had fun last night!
I met my dear sister last night and we shared lots of stories....
It has been a while.since I last met her~
She's getting prettier each time I see her! Haha XD
Well, I got a good news from her... And... I'm happy for her~ really happy for her....
You deserve to be happy~
Find your.own happiness okay!
And.. I'll search for mine too~
I promise~
And... Oh! Thanks for the birthday present~
I'll get you one present next time~
Hahaha XD
Well, I gotta go now...
I have a date with atifa today! Haha XD

Hmmm...

Well, I just woke up a few hours ago...
And... Now, I feel like going to sleep again.........
Is it because of the headache... Or.... I just feel like staying on the bed?
Hmmm... Anyway, it's kinda hard to go to sleep these few days... I wonder why..... >.<
Haih~~~

A happy day~ =D

Today, I went to AEON Rawang with my family~
We went to watch the movie Hansel and Gretel~~
It was a great movie~ haha XD
I enjoyed the movie so much!! <3
after the movie, we went to buy some snacks and bread~
Those are for dinner since we don't really feel like eating heavy food...
Hehe~~
seriously, it's been quite some time I had fun~ and I'm glad that I had fun today! XD
haih.... I just wish that my brother, Hazwan can join us today~
Nevermind! I'm gonna meet him soon~ Chinese New Year is coming up soon! He's gonna get his holiday~
And... This time, I hope that we can spend some time together~
We need some time for family!
It's been a while tho.... Hmm...
No matter what, I love all of them!! <3

end of semester 3~

okay, *fuuuuuuuh fuuuuuuuuh fuuuuuuuuh* the dust! oh!!! they are too thick!! haha XD pity my dear bloggy~ huhuhu~ well, hello bloggy!! i'm back! eheheheheheheheehehehe~ =D IT'S HOLIIIIIDAAAAAAAY!!!! hahahahahahaha XD XD so, i've been home for a week now~ erm..... the third semester of my degree has just finished! hoorraaaaaay!! =D well, lots of things happened during the short period of time~ i also realized that i made a mistake by inviting a 'poison' into my life~ i'm regretting now..... >.< well, i've just lost someone important to me, and now, the one that i used to call "best friend" made my life more interesting than it used to be........ aahh~ hmmm....... my fault, i guess~ i trusted the wrong person........ well, hmmmm...... now that i've learnt my lesson, it would be hard for me to trust others now... haiz..... what an incredible experience~ the pain, frustration and sadness were hard for me to handle~ besides that, the pressure also increased as the assignments and project were twice harder than the previous semester... haiz... with all the complicated inner frustrations added with stress and pressure, i was defeated and fell sick few times in the 3 months time~ no matter what, physical pain in better than the pain in the heart!!~ huhuhuhu~ kinda nostalgic! well, i still agree on that statement~ but! i'm glad that i still have my best friends by my side~ they were the ones that comfort and support me all way long... they are the reason why i can stand up again after falling and getting hurt~ thanks guys! <3 <3 and! most importantly! i hope i can get enough rest during this one month break~ since i did not get enough sleep and rest the whole semester~ huhuhu~ =D hmm...,.......... i guess, that's it! ahaha XD well...... sharing my thoughts and feelings here are better than keeping them inside my small heart~ hahaha XD