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Too many things happened...
Too much pressure......
Too many disappointment....
Too many damages.......
I've stayed strong for a period of time~
Never thought of this day to come~
The feeling of lonliness, disappointment and sadness are bringing me down lil by lil~
I've pretended for a period of time....
'it's okay', 'i don't mind', 'i'm fine', 'i'm strong' can never stop my tears from running down anymore~
It's time for me to face all my mixed feelings, all of my depression.........
Well, i have to be independent no matter what....
up til the point where having no one to talk to will never bother me again....

Writers.....

I am sad....
Extremely sad......
if you don't want to stay with us, you can just say it out....
Why go through all the trouble to make up a story?
It's not logical to me.....
I've had enough of accusations and stories in my life....
I wouldn't need one from you....
This is not the first time....
Before this, i've seen and heard your stories that you said behind us.... (you talked too loud! - if they were meant to be secret, thn you should lower down yoir voice)
Now, i've seen ur acting and story telling skills right in front of my eyes.......
You are good!!
Why do you have to use someone else's name?
Why do you have to lie?
Why can't you just say out the truth??
WHY?!?!
I just don't understand why.........
Haih.......
I'm upset! Very very upset!
I thought people might change after some time....
BUT! You are toooooo old for a change!
Just............ Stop hurting others.......
They are the people who love you the most!
Think of their feelings!
You are not the only living creature on the earth~
We are not your tools........
Please.........
I beg you..........

Today's diary~

Well, I don't have anything special to do lately....
Therefore.. I'm quite bored..
Hmm.... I just got the news that my results will be out on 15th February...
Gaaaaaaah! I'm quite nervous now!
Haiz... I am not really sure of my performance for the past exams... Haih...
Hope I did not screw up....
Hmm... Well, i've been spending my time in front of my lappy, rewinding and re-watching all the chinese dramas lately since I don't know what's new... Kinda lame there...
Besides that, i've been watching idol maknae rebellion which is extremely funny! Haha XD
I started to be a fan of seunghyub from ftisland now.. He's hillarious!! XD
Well, besides that, i've been watching boyfriend's hello baby~
It's funny watching kids looking after kids! Hahahaha XD
I think.. They need some help! Haha XD
Hmm... I just remembered that I have some leftover transcriptions that I nees to finish off! Haih..
I'll try and finish them up by tomorrow~
Mummy said they're gonna claim the money next week.. Hmm...
well, anyway, i've been spending mucg time without doing anything, and now, i'm regreting because I did not search for any work.. Hmm...
it's late now... Haha XD
Gotta catch up with my sleep~~ hihi~
Goodnight everyone!!! XD