wad does friendship really means??

i've encounter lots of problems regarding friendship.....
n.... i've learnt a lot about the friendship world.....
however, thr r still some other things tat i dun really understand.....
hw come i gt closer to tis one and gt further to tat one??
cuz they dun really get along together??
or.... i did a wrong decision??
hmmm....
i hav tis one special friend...
i understand her well and she understands me well too....
we were together since.... high school started,....
thr's nt many problem rises between us....
bt one day, i decided to get into another person's life....
i started to understand tat person...
i started to build confidence and trust in her....
i knew she's close to my bro..
yea... tat was my initial motive...
bt after some time, i learnt tat she wasn;t a bad person...
so, i accepted her in my life....
i never knew tat wad i did tat time would crash my friendship tie tat i had wif the other person....
a lot of things happened between the three of us,....
in conclusion.... the two of them dun get along wif each other anymore...
and i'm stuck between both of the person tat i love wif all my heart....
and....
i fought wif the B.... bt, we gt along after some time....
i noe i promised tat i won;t get along wif B since she broke my heart frequently...
bt, she's kinda different nw...
it's nt easy to change... bt, i cn see changes in her...
maybe tat's why i accepted her bac....
well.... however, i feel tat, recently, i'm quite far wif A....
the one tat i precious the most...
i dunno...
maybe it's juz me who think a lot...
maybe she wasn't thinking tat way...
lol.....
i was asking other people nt to think a lot...
bt, i am the one who think a lot....
juz... feeling uneasy....
maybe....
lol...
anyway, i juz dun understand wad friendship really means....
tat's all...
to the readers out thr,...
i juz splited everything out from my heart....
u may read n absorb it or u may juz leave it... lol....
gtg nw.....
more thinking to do.... hmm....

garden seafood 8th anniversary dinner~

okei~~
i made a record last nite~
i went out from house at 10.50...
n i stayed at broadway cafe which is a cafe organized by my boss's wife, for 2 hours ++ n i got home at 2....
lol~~
they gt game..
n the game was errrr..... kinda like luck??
i was kinda LUCKY whn i had to sing wif one of my big bosses...
n it was.... errr... terrible....
i guess???
lol~ hahaha XD XD
anyway, i enjoy the nite wif all of them...
although yesterday was my last day working thr, bt i'm gonna miss everyone of them~~
each n everyone of them in garden....
will miss you guys...
it's fun working wif such interesting friends~ ^^
hope to see you guys soon~ =)

my heart~

due to some reasons.....
my heart starts to shrink....
or....
you might say.....
the door of my heart are closing...
bit by bit.....
i hope tat no other thing tat will make my heart burst...
it's... enough... by now....
too many things happened tat made my heart broke into pieces....
bt... somehow... i manage to stick it back...
bt still...
i'm badly injured....
inside......
hmm.......
lot's of things to think and to do.....

i'll miss you~ we'll miss you.......

not long ago....
whn i was getting ready to work, u would always got up from the bed n asked me, are you going to work???
whn i was tying my shoe laces, u would asked, who are going to send you to work?? may i follow???
hmm...... i miss those questions now....

last time......
when i was much younger....
i would lie to you tat i had stomachache... (actually i din finish my homework... lol~)
thn, u would came to school as fast as possible....
thn, took me to doctor.....
u would buy me my fav food and my fav kuih....
u would let me do everything tat i like.....
now, i miss the care tat u poured to me.....
eventhough i lied to u....

last time.....
when u talked to me bout my studies...
you would say tat u wan to look at me growing older and older....
u wan to see me to hold the certificates of success in my studies....
u would wan to see me going to work....
and u promised me u will....
however, u are not even here now....
although u can't wait till tat time, i would study harder and prove to you tat i can...
and i would make u proud.... i will...

last time......
whn u said tat u stay wif us when the house ready.....
i was happy....
cuz my wish was to stay wif u....
bt, u went away befoe the house even ready....
u went away before we gt the chance to spend ramadhan n raya together....
i am sad.....

few days back......
i was playing and joking wif you....
u usually dun like to take pictures....
but tat day, i said, why dun u take pic wif me??
i cn take a look at the pictures whn i miss you.....
u agreed.... u agreed....
and tat was the only picture tat i gt before u left me....
i would treasure tat...
forever....

hmm~~~ u left too soon~
too soon....
anyway, i miss you..........
and... we all will miss you....

angry or hurt???

hmmm....

i dunno hw to say this.....

wad am i feeling now??

angry??? or.... hurt????

i dunno.... i really dunno...
i'm running out of words...

tiring days~

hav u ever walked into a packed and full restraunt??
or... hav u ever went to a wedding reception???
if u hav went to one of those places, i guess, u can guess how many ppl will be in such situation rite???

okei... i went to a wedding reception yesterday.....
we went to batu gajah from tanjong malim... 2 hours of travelling (actually)...
however, some unfortunatte things happened... the lorry's tyre flew out cuz the screw were out from its place....
so, we took a longer time to reached there....
we din even hav enuff time to prepare for the food and drinks....
however, no one understand our situation so, we were scolded cuz the lack of time...
i dunmind if the people thr wanna scold us...
but! dun ever n ever usue other language to scold us~ i cannot accept tat!! never!!
dun ever think tat no other people who understands chinese language except the chinese~
i'm a malay and i understand them!
u dun hav to hurt other people using other language...
why dun u juz say in front of us??? using eng or malay??
tat won;t kill us like wad u did which u used chinese language and scolded us behind us....
tat was too much~~~~ i can never accept tat!! >_<
u cn eat and drink as much as u wan bt stop talking bullshit behind of us!!!
i will never forgive tat kind of bastards~~
we arrived home at 2 midnight last nite...
it was a tiring nite...
although we gt a day off, but we can't off today because today is sunday~
usually we start our work at 11, but today we had to go early cuz thr's 30 tables of bus customers waiting for us...
so, i went early and i spent my whole afternoon serving food and drink non stop....
now, my legs are numb and i hope tat thr won;t be too much booking tomorro~ haiz~~
tiring days~~~~
i nid rest!!!!!