my heart~

due to some reasons.....
my heart starts to shrink....
or....
you might say.....
the door of my heart are closing...
bit by bit.....
i hope tat no other thing tat will make my heart burst...
it's... enough... by now....
too many things happened tat made my heart broke into pieces....
bt... somehow... i manage to stick it back...
bt still...
i'm badly injured....
inside......
hmm.......
lot's of things to think and to do.....

i'll miss you~ we'll miss you.......

not long ago....
whn i was getting ready to work, u would always got up from the bed n asked me, are you going to work???
whn i was tying my shoe laces, u would asked, who are going to send you to work?? may i follow???
hmm...... i miss those questions now....

last time......
when i was much younger....
i would lie to you tat i had stomachache... (actually i din finish my homework... lol~)
thn, u would came to school as fast as possible....
thn, took me to doctor.....
u would buy me my fav food and my fav kuih....
u would let me do everything tat i like.....
now, i miss the care tat u poured to me.....
eventhough i lied to u....

last time.....
when u talked to me bout my studies...
you would say tat u wan to look at me growing older and older....
u wan to see me to hold the certificates of success in my studies....
u would wan to see me going to work....
and u promised me u will....
however, u are not even here now....
although u can't wait till tat time, i would study harder and prove to you tat i can...
and i would make u proud.... i will...

last time......
whn u said tat u stay wif us when the house ready.....
i was happy....
cuz my wish was to stay wif u....
bt, u went away befoe the house even ready....
u went away before we gt the chance to spend ramadhan n raya together....
i am sad.....

few days back......
i was playing and joking wif you....
u usually dun like to take pictures....
but tat day, i said, why dun u take pic wif me??
i cn take a look at the pictures whn i miss you.....
u agreed.... u agreed....
and tat was the only picture tat i gt before u left me....
i would treasure tat...
forever....

hmm~~~ u left too soon~
too soon....
anyway, i miss you..........
and... we all will miss you....

angry or hurt???

hmmm....

i dunno hw to say this.....

wad am i feeling now??

angry??? or.... hurt????

i dunno.... i really dunno...
i'm running out of words...

tiring days~

hav u ever walked into a packed and full restraunt??
or... hav u ever went to a wedding reception???
if u hav went to one of those places, i guess, u can guess how many ppl will be in such situation rite???

okei... i went to a wedding reception yesterday.....
we went to batu gajah from tanjong malim... 2 hours of travelling (actually)...
however, some unfortunatte things happened... the lorry's tyre flew out cuz the screw were out from its place....
so, we took a longer time to reached there....
we din even hav enuff time to prepare for the food and drinks....
however, no one understand our situation so, we were scolded cuz the lack of time...
i dunmind if the people thr wanna scold us...
but! dun ever n ever usue other language to scold us~ i cannot accept tat!! never!!
dun ever think tat no other people who understands chinese language except the chinese~
i'm a malay and i understand them!
u dun hav to hurt other people using other language...
why dun u juz say in front of us??? using eng or malay??
tat won;t kill us like wad u did which u used chinese language and scolded us behind us....
tat was too much~~~~ i can never accept tat!! >_<
u cn eat and drink as much as u wan bt stop talking bullshit behind of us!!!
i will never forgive tat kind of bastards~~
we arrived home at 2 midnight last nite...
it was a tiring nite...
although we gt a day off, but we can't off today because today is sunday~
usually we start our work at 11, but today we had to go early cuz thr's 30 tables of bus customers waiting for us...
so, i went early and i spent my whole afternoon serving food and drink non stop....
now, my legs are numb and i hope tat thr won;t be too much booking tomorro~ haiz~~
tiring days~~~~
i nid rest!!!!!

motif???

jangan igt diorang yg ko puja2 selama nie tu bagus sgt...
jgn nk buat org lain naik angin tgh2 malam ni...
mmg... mmg ko suke sgt ngan bini2 ko tu...
tak guna la klau pkai mic tp tak nyayi langsung....
asyik bergantung kt recorded music je...
memang penyanyi sejati diorang tu....
bagus la....
pastu... jgn la nk berlagak mcm ko tau sgt pasal super junior ek...
tolong cermin sikit diri tu....
i am into kpop before u r...
so, juz shut ur big fat mouth and get lost,...
i'm nt gonna tolerate tis anymore cuz u r making my best friend annoyed each time u talked about them....
hav u ever think tat those artists are not urs???
if u r the boss of the company, thn u cn talk like they are yours....
if not, juz shut ur fucking mouth and get lost...
i dunwan to see u making my friend angry anymore......

a picture of my favourite night~

wondering wad is it??
haaha XD XD tis picture was took on our Asasi TESL dinner....
why tis picture???
because tis picture shows our bond....
hehe~ ^.^