seriously.... i am SPEECHLESS!

i dunno wad r u trying to prove to me... i dunno wad r u trying to do... i dunno wad's in ur mind.... and please... i hav no time for tis... if u wan to continue wif the game, thn u cn go on by urself... thanks.... i dunwan to join u.... i'm tired... i've promised my mum to do better this semester... so many things happened... n ur ******* childishness is pissing me off!! can't u juz like admit ur fault.... i was expecting something will change.. bt., u din even change... u r such a ****.... i dunno... i now i am rude nw... bt, i am really tired.... whn i came to the point like accepting u bac... u made smthg stupid up again... wad's ur problem!! i dun understand... yea rite... juz like u said... 'dah la....' i cn juz say tat... no problem at all!! i am very glad to do so.... thank you~~ as u wish my princess... i am no one though... nt important.... so... AS U WISH..... u cn do wadever u like... u dun hav to tell me u r here... u r there... u dun hav to tell me tat u wan to see me... cuz... i'm nt important to u anymore.... cuz to u.... we're like... OVER~ isn't tat so?? okei... i gt no time to waste anymore... thanks for ur love all this while.... anyway, i'm tired with this stupid friendship... ^^
hope u r happy always!! ^^
sincerely from me, liyana binti hasnan~

cause and effect essay.....

the truth is....... i dun like writing an cause and effect essay....
i'm not really good in writing them...
i can only do weel in descriptive essay or narrative essay...
thosetwo are my type of writing style...
i prefer something that came out of my mind all of a sudden than something that were logic and concrete....
haiz......
writing and cause and effect essay is really a big deal for me...
i don;t know what to write....
everything must be in order...
introductory paragraph, body paragrah and concluding paragrah....
main idea, topic sentences and transitinal sentences...
transition, vocabulary and quotes....
haiz....
can't i juz write without thinking bout all of that?
it's giving me unknown numbers of pressure and i dun like it.... SHIRO!!! (it's 'i dun like' inn korean ^^)
and.... the worst part is....
this particular cause and effect essay is my assignment 2 for college reading 2 course.....
hmm...... i dun like it....
it's frustrating.....
i hope it won;t take longer time to finish it...
i need to get the essay edited by my mum before 4!!
and now is.... 2.15...
oh my dear ideas~
please~~ please~~
come to me~~ come to me~~~
i'm begging you~~ please~~
pretty please~~
>_<

phew~
gotta get going with my hanging essay now~
tata~~ till next time~

^^

erm........

tis week is kinda.... bored.... hmm~
i wonder why~

anyway, some cool stuff happened....
i became a big big big big big light bulb today...
went out with a couple and had.... erm.... breakfast+lunch+dinner.... erm.... how to make it short??? *FAINT* LOL~ XD XD
anyway, i became a victim to them....
there are both of them, but i'm particularly alone!
haha XD XD

i dun mind.....
but, i'm shy! *covering my face with my palms* LOL~
thanks my dear sister n brother in law...
thanks a lot...
i shall seek for my revenge... SOON~~~
hahahahaha XD XD
okay~ tat was fun! =P

hmmm.... there are the new batch of korean students came to our fac to learn language...
they had programme going on.... erm... sort of welcoming programme i guess...
i dun really noe bout it...
but.. wad i can say is.... one of the guys, he looks like minho from shinee..
he really is.... he's tall... n fair!!
haiz~ why can't i be as fair as they are??
haiz... really can't understand that...
anyway, it's good to have international friends~
hihihihi~ ^^

phew~ i think i'm getting flu...
hmm.... really tired now.... but... i can;t sleep.. LOL~ XD
funny huh?? hahaha XD XD
gotta eat medicine now.... so tat, my flu won;t get any worse...
till next time! see ya!!

lelaki?? huh~

hmm.... baru lepas baca blog kawan saya ni.... and, i found something interesting....

pemikiran lelaki...... sangat kolot and cetek!!!~ mulut x reti nk tutup!! kerja diorang, cakap, kutuk and cucuk dari belakang... kn???!! huh~ lelaki kan....

kepada lelaki-lelaki di luar sana, sapa yang makan cili dia la terasa pedasnya~~ saya nk ckp sikit nie.....

apa yang korang tak puas hati dengan perempuan?? hah?? x faham sungguh~ kalau kitorang pakai tudung, kata kitorang bajet alim la... saja nk menunjuk la... klau kitorang x pakai tudung plak, kata kitorang ni sosial la.... ponpuan x elok la... apa kes?!! apa ingat lelaki tu elok sangat la nak cakap macam tu?? TOLONG SIKIT~~ setakat mulut BUSUK macam tu.... masuk neraka la wei~~ ish! menaikkan kemarahan orang tgh2 malam nie tau!! lelaki tu baik sangat ke?? korang jugak la spesis yang merosakkan pompuan... tau nk berseronok ngan pompuan, thn buang je diorang macam tu!! eeeeeee~ sape yang teruk skrg nie??? hah??? cuba ckp skit?? sapa yg teruk skrg ni?? laki ke pompuan??

sopan?? kitorang nk cakap ngan sopan pun salah ke?? hah?? perlu ke kutuk kitorang sampai mcm tu?? mmg ada sesetengah daripada kitorang yg pakai tudung on n off... salah seorang ye, saya!! ye, saya!! ada masalah ke?? nak kata saya ni pompuan jahat ke?? nak kata saya ni pompuan x guna ke?? eh~ tolong skit, setakat mulut je boleh cakap benda x bermakna tu sume, mata mengeluarkan penangan yg x seberapa tu, igt boleh dpt kejayaan dlm hdp la??? BODOH!~ u will never succeed! NEVER!!! ini namanya orang bodoh ngan bangang~ eeeee~ benci la lelaki yg tau ckp je!! x suka!!

although i do not know who you are.... bt, i juz hope, oh no!! i really hope that you will just shut ur F****** MOUTH and GO!!!~ dun ever n ever let me know who you are... if not, you will be the first person that i will hate in my entire life!!~

i hope the guys out there jangan nk perasan yg korang tu baik sgt ek.... tolong skit... memang i x sebaik mana... tapi, xde la sampai nk menjatuhkn maruah seseorang kt sini... tp, unfortunately, entah mamat bodoh mana entah yg telah membuatkn sya ni bertindak memarahi semua lelaki2 di sana.... mintak maaf la kt sesapa yg terasa tu ek... x sengaja... tp, igtla.... bukan lelaki je ada mulut ek... pompuan pon ada mulut gak... aga2 ar skit!!~ ok??? paham??

jealous???

lol~

apa maksud semua ini???

it doesn't mean that when someone is already together, then you can be closer to him or her.... can touch him or her more.... without concerning about gossip.... that is sooooo wrong.... i dun like the way that kind of people think... it's just sooo wrong.... is it so hard to admit that you are jealous??? is that soooo hard??? you can just say that, 'erm..... i'm jealous.... sorry' something like that... is that sooo hard??? i dun think so... it's just you who are making it hard... it's just you who doesn't want to admit it... and it's just you who are too sensitive... who is that person to you anyway??? no one right?? so.... what makes you sooo jealous?? it just doesn't seem right... why don't you think about it again.... you action is making me angry... and your action is making other's people life in confusion, anger and mess! think about it again before you try to do it.... make sure the idea of what you are going to do went through your brain before you do it! understand tat?? huh~ ii hope you understand that~~ thank you~~

i don't understand~

hmm....

why such small things can be such a big deal when it comes to you???

don't you feel tired with all this?? don't you feel annouyed when such thing happen more than one time???

seriously, i'm very tired.... why can't you just understand??? i've been taking care of your heart for too long... i am not dare enough to hurt you.... however, people will make mistakes after all... you should understand that.... yes, maybe this is the first time you are turn your back on me... maybe before this i've done something wrong that i didn;t realized.... yes, i can accept that... but, have you ever think that i'm hurt too??? have you ever think that how much you hurt me before this??? have you ever think of what i feel all this while??? have you??? we are best friends... yes... we are.... but, why does things turned out to be like this??? why do you have to show me that stubborness??? why???

i don't mind if you want to ask about him.... i don't mind... but, please.... don't take advantage on that.... you keep on asking about him.... whole day.... it's not that you can't ask me about him... but, there's a limit for that.... i'm his sister.... i'm not his bodyguard or something.... i deserve to have some attention too.... you should know that.... you can ask... but not 24 hours ask me about him... and only him!!! you will always open the conversation by asking me whether i'm fine or not, what am i doing... but then, after that, you will just ask me what he is doing, where is he, and everything is about him!!!!! if you are on my place, imagine what will you feel???? iam obviuosly tired and annoyed at the same time... but, i just keep quite to make sure that you are not hurt... but, you never understand what i feel, what i think... NEVER!!!!

you are childish... yes... and i accepted that... but, you're childishness became worse and worse.... and that childishness had hurt me little by little.... that childishness also made me annoyed little by little... why can't you just understand me??!!!is it so hard to understand me?? is it so heart to open up your heart and say that you forgive me??? i didn't mean it... it's not what i wanted to say to you.... it's just a split of tongue... why can't you just understand?? and... it's not that i don't want to tell you that i went back.... and it's not that you are not important to me!!! why do you have to make that kind of assumption?? why???? why can;t you just understand that i love you and i care about you???? why can;t you just understand??? WHY!!!!!!!!

haiz..... i don't kmow what to say now... i'm speechless.... i'm weak... and i'm hurt.... it's not that only you are hurt you know.. i'm hurt too... please bear in your mind.... why can't you just change.... at least a bit.... be a little bit understanding.... why??? haiz.... i hope you can change... please, push that childishness aside, be a woman now.... a mature woman... that's all i ask from you... that's all... thank you~

haircut~

after keeping my hair for months, finally, i made a decision to get a hair cut....

i went to macy saloon juz now.... and i had my hair cut.... i dun look much different... juz.... it;s much shorter now.... haha XD

after having a hair cut, i washed my hair... the person hands are cold... so, whenever she touch my neck, i'll felt a sort of electricity going through my body... haha XD
it's the first time people washed my hair... huhu~

anyway, my head is very light now.... i guess having a short hair is not that bad... having short hair is much easier...

i shouldn't have done that
i should've ignore it
like something i couldn't see
like something i can't see
i shouldn't have ever looked at you
i should've ran away
i should've acted like i didn't hear it
like something i couldn't hear, like something i can't hear
i shouldn't have listened to my heart

chorus:
you showed me love without words
you gave me your love without words
you made me hold my breath, waiting for you
but you ran away like that

without word, love leaves me
without a word love throws me away
what should i say next?
my only closed lips were surprise
coming without words

why does it hurt so much?
why does it keep hurting?
except for the fact that you aren't here
though everything is the same

chorus;
you showed me love without words
you gave me your love without words
you made me hold my breath, waiting for you
but you ran away like this

without words love leaves me
without a word love throws me away
what should i say next?
my only close lips were surprised

without a word my tears fall
without a word my heart breaks
without a word i will wait for love
without a word love hurts me
i zone out, i become a fool
because i cry as i look up the sky

without a word a goodbye found me
without a word a goodbye came to me
i couldn't even prepare to send you away
i think my heart was surprised
without a word it came

without a word it went
without a word it left
like the fever before
It'll just hurt for a while
only scars will be left in the end

tat's an OST from a Korean drama You're Beautiful...
i love this song very much because this song potrayed the sadness that people can't split out in words....
anyway, to whom in love, make sure that you and your lover are happy... my wish is with you guys....
to whom that are in the situation as if the song is, be strong.... one day, your true love will come to you by itself...

poems~

in literature class, we were asked to come out with a poem each for limeric structure and haiku structure... so, below are my poems...

LIMERIC~
chocolate is sweet,
bitter yet sweet,
life is fun,
adventurous yet fun,
both are fun and sweet.

merepek je kn?? hahaha XD
ada lagi satu...

HAIKU~
i dislike all cats,
they sleep, run, jump, scratch and bite,
but, they all look cute.

that's the truth...
i pernah kena gigit dgn kucing tau...
cakar pun ada...
dh trauma dh...
takut~~ T__T

rhyme??

ok... my friend juz said tis to me juz now...

sori naik lori,
bapak i takde lori,
u pikir-pikir la sendiri,
u buat i ternanti-nanti!

LOL~ XD XD
it's hillarious~
akibat daripada belajar literature....
RHYME GILER!!~
LOL~~~ XD XD XD

pissed!!

friendship...... is beautiful.....

i agree.........

bt, comparing your best friends??? is tat necessary??? like seriously, is tat NECESSARY???

i dunno tat girl... really dunno her.... u said tat she's a very gud friend... ok...i believed in you... bt, i never knew tat tat particular gud friend tat u r having nw will replace someone tat's way more u love tat her..... u replace your world best friend with a girl tat u juz knew few months ago??? is tat fair??!!!! is tat logic??!!! is tat acceptable???!!

now, i'm gonna say smthg... i dun accept it, n i can't even accept it!! it's not acceptable at all!! i dun care wad had got into your mind... i dun even care wad she said to u, wad charm she put on u, i juz can't accept it!! tat's too much!!

huh~ i juz dun believe ur new friend anyway... cuz, she doesn't look like someone tat i cn trust... u r juz pissing me off.. yes, i love u my best friend, bt, u really pissed me off~ and... i won't ever ever ever n ever forgive you if you ever hurt the people tat i love.... mark my words, N...E...V...E...R...!!!!!!~

college??

okay.... i'm an 18 years old girl... oh! it's new year already... thn i should be 19 now... hmm... well... i'm 19, yes, 19..... why do i feel like i'm old now?? ok... that's nott the point now... i'm juz saying that, i'm 19, and i'm studying in a college now...UiTM Shah Alam... i'm doing Foundation in TESL.. what is TESL?? you all might want to ask that cuz everyone does... ^^

TESL~ TESL is Teaching English as Second Languagel.. do i want to be a teacher?? HEll NO!!!~ i don't want to be a teacher... because i know that i can't be one... and my parents won't approve it too....

now, talking about college.... college life is fun.... because we get to know new friends... learn new things... get to learn how to be independent... get to go other places... more or less, like... more... FREEDOM~ yes~ more freedom~

i really love college life.... but... somehow, i felt that something's missing.... i'm not sure bout what it is... just.... i.... started to miss my school days.... lil by lil... bit by bit... and now, i really really miss those days when i was busy finishing my homework (opps! i never do my homework, i juz did some~ haha XD), the day i was busy fighting and quarreling with my friends, the day i was busy with co-curriculum activities, the day i went out for competitions with my friends, the day i spent my time in the classroom listening to my teachers, and the days i laugh, cried and jumped in the school.... it's such a splendid memories.... i just miss them sooooo much!!

no matter how much i love my college life now, i still miss my school life a lot.... because, i was with them for more than 5 years.... the bond between us can't be seperated that easily.... i just miss all of them very very very much..... i hope they miss me too~~ haha XD

so, to whom who wants to leave your school life early, think of it again.... school is where your memories lies.... school is where you learn, by yourself, with the help of your friends and of course, your teachers.... appreciate and spend your time wisely in school days because i'm very very sure that you will miss those splendid time one day just like i do~

to all my firends out there, please be healthy.... happy new year.... i hope that you all will have a gorgeous year in this 2011... and i hope that you all won't forget me~ have fun!!~ XD XD

1111~

yesterday was the first day in the new year....

i was 'trapped' in the house for about a week... i wasn't able to go out with anyone.... cuz, eventually my best friends aren't free... anyway, i managed to go our with atifa, karthi and sharrvind yesterday....

i went out at 2.30 pm with atifa... we went to town.... we walked and talked.... after a while, we headed to easy cafe and had something nice to eat there... after that, we headed bac to the town again... we went to pasar malam and then we shopped for some things.... it was fun.... it's quite some time i didn't see her... i miss her soooo much~ then we shopped till... erm... 6++.... thn, i went to see karthi and sharrvind at 7++~ we talked n laughed n talked n laughed... it was fun.... i didn't see them for.... a year i guess??? tat was long.... haiz... it's hard to get a chance to see them.... haha XD

after the long talked, i went bac home, i started to online... and i had fun in fb last night.... it was a mess... cuz, there were 3 person who were chatting with me... n thn, the comments in my status n wall post... n also i was busy writing my opinion on how i met a person and wad do i think about him/her through my status.... it was fun.... haha XD

anyway, i went through a happy new year~~

hope you all have fun!!~ XD