struggling.......

it's really hard.....
seriously.....
although i prevent myself from thinking bout it...
bt, sometimes, it juz come to me...
anyway, i'm struggling wif my own heart n my brain....
lol.....
i'm hurt....
really hurt....
hurt by my own decision.....
hurt by my own thought....
haiz....
tired....
really tired.....
hope i cn juz forget bout tis...
tis thing really kills me lil by lil...
although i keep it in my heart, bear it all alone,
bt, i'm gonna burst someday....
n somehow, tat someday is coming.....
haiz.....
really hope i cn go through tis....
haiz....