.........

Too many things happened...
Too much pressure......
Too many disappointment....
Too many damages.......
I've stayed strong for a period of time~
Never thought of this day to come~
The feeling of lonliness, disappointment and sadness are bringing me down lil by lil~
I've pretended for a period of time....
'it's okay', 'i don't mind', 'i'm fine', 'i'm strong' can never stop my tears from running down anymore~
It's time for me to face all my mixed feelings, all of my depression.........
Well, i have to be independent no matter what....
up til the point where having no one to talk to will never bother me again....

Writers.....

I am sad....
Extremely sad......
if you don't want to stay with us, you can just say it out....
Why go through all the trouble to make up a story?
It's not logical to me.....
I've had enough of accusations and stories in my life....
I wouldn't need one from you....
This is not the first time....
Before this, i've seen and heard your stories that you said behind us.... (you talked too loud! - if they were meant to be secret, thn you should lower down yoir voice)
Now, i've seen ur acting and story telling skills right in front of my eyes.......
You are good!!
Why do you have to use someone else's name?
Why do you have to lie?
Why can't you just say out the truth??
WHY?!?!
I just don't understand why.........
Haih.......
I'm upset! Very very upset!
I thought people might change after some time....
BUT! You are toooooo old for a change!
Just............ Stop hurting others.......
They are the people who love you the most!
Think of their feelings!
You are not the only living creature on the earth~
We are not your tools........
Please.........
I beg you..........

Today's diary~

Well, I don't have anything special to do lately....
Therefore.. I'm quite bored..
Hmm.... I just got the news that my results will be out on 15th February...
Gaaaaaaah! I'm quite nervous now!
Haiz... I am not really sure of my performance for the past exams... Haih...
Hope I did not screw up....
Hmm... Well, i've been spending my time in front of my lappy, rewinding and re-watching all the chinese dramas lately since I don't know what's new... Kinda lame there...
Besides that, i've been watching idol maknae rebellion which is extremely funny! Haha XD
I started to be a fan of seunghyub from ftisland now.. He's hillarious!! XD
Well, besides that, i've been watching boyfriend's hello baby~
It's funny watching kids looking after kids! Hahahaha XD
I think.. They need some help! Haha XD
Hmm... I just remembered that I have some leftover transcriptions that I nees to finish off! Haih..
I'll try and finish them up by tomorrow~
Mummy said they're gonna claim the money next week.. Hmm...
well, anyway, i've been spending mucg time without doing anything, and now, i'm regreting because I did not search for any work.. Hmm...
it's late now... Haha XD
Gotta catch up with my sleep~~ hihi~
Goodnight everyone!!! XD

A date with Kaman~

It was nice meeting up with kaman today~
She's the one who I can talk about my studies and pressure that I have....
We're the same in some ways...
Especially when associated with work...
We cannot say 'no'~
We will volunteer ourselves to do the work in order to get the best result....
We will do anything as long as we can get the wprk done...
So, practically,.we are quite the same!
Hahahahaha
So, we had a long talk today....
And it was nice to see her!!
Till we meet again Kaman!! XD
Oh! And thanks for the little present!!
I'll treasure it! =D

Date with Atifa and Maryam~

Well, since we are back together, we went out and had somw fun!
On monday, we both stayed at atifa's house, chating all day long and watched sinister together!! Haha XD
The next day, we went to AEON Rawang and atifa shopped for her things!
Then, we headed to empangan kkb and spent some lovely time thr...
We took some pictures too!
Hehe... It's been a while...
I really miss them~ hehe~

A date with Karthi~

Haha XD
I had fun last night!
I met my dear sister last night and we shared lots of stories....
It has been a while.since I last met her~
She's getting prettier each time I see her! Haha XD
Well, I got a good news from her... And... I'm happy for her~ really happy for her....
You deserve to be happy~
Find your.own happiness okay!
And.. I'll search for mine too~
I promise~
And... Oh! Thanks for the birthday present~
I'll get you one present next time~
Hahaha XD
Well, I gotta go now...
I have a date with atifa today! Haha XD

Hmmm...

Well, I just woke up a few hours ago...
And... Now, I feel like going to sleep again.........
Is it because of the headache... Or.... I just feel like staying on the bed?
Hmmm... Anyway, it's kinda hard to go to sleep these few days... I wonder why..... >.<
Haih~~~

A happy day~ =D

Today, I went to AEON Rawang with my family~
We went to watch the movie Hansel and Gretel~~
It was a great movie~ haha XD
I enjoyed the movie so much!! <3
after the movie, we went to buy some snacks and bread~
Those are for dinner since we don't really feel like eating heavy food...
Hehe~~
seriously, it's been quite some time I had fun~ and I'm glad that I had fun today! XD
haih.... I just wish that my brother, Hazwan can join us today~
Nevermind! I'm gonna meet him soon~ Chinese New Year is coming up soon! He's gonna get his holiday~
And... This time, I hope that we can spend some time together~
We need some time for family!
It's been a while tho.... Hmm...
No matter what, I love all of them!! <3

end of semester 3~

okay, *fuuuuuuuh fuuuuuuuuh fuuuuuuuuh* the dust! oh!!! they are too thick!! haha XD pity my dear bloggy~ huhuhu~ well, hello bloggy!! i'm back! eheheheheheheheehehehe~ =D IT'S HOLIIIIIDAAAAAAAY!!!! hahahahahahaha XD XD so, i've been home for a week now~ erm..... the third semester of my degree has just finished! hoorraaaaaay!! =D well, lots of things happened during the short period of time~ i also realized that i made a mistake by inviting a 'poison' into my life~ i'm regretting now..... >.< well, i've just lost someone important to me, and now, the one that i used to call "best friend" made my life more interesting than it used to be........ aahh~ hmmm....... my fault, i guess~ i trusted the wrong person........ well, hmmmm...... now that i've learnt my lesson, it would be hard for me to trust others now... haiz..... what an incredible experience~ the pain, frustration and sadness were hard for me to handle~ besides that, the pressure also increased as the assignments and project were twice harder than the previous semester... haiz... with all the complicated inner frustrations added with stress and pressure, i was defeated and fell sick few times in the 3 months time~ no matter what, physical pain in better than the pain in the heart!!~ huhuhuhu~ kinda nostalgic! well, i still agree on that statement~ but! i'm glad that i still have my best friends by my side~ they were the ones that comfort and support me all way long... they are the reason why i can stand up again after falling and getting hurt~ thanks guys! <3 <3 and! most importantly! i hope i can get enough rest during this one month break~ since i did not get enough sleep and rest the whole semester~ huhuhu~ =D hmm...,.......... i guess, that's it! ahaha XD well...... sharing my thoughts and feelings here are better than keeping them inside my small heart~ hahaha XD

mid sem break~

hi~ today is tuesday as in the second day of my mid sem break... juz gt back from melaka last nite cuz we went to vist my poh2 thr since she's sick... bt nw, we're taking care of her n my opah here in tg malim... i went to help my mum this morning... and... i juz gt a news abt the assignment on language and society where i hav to look for a foreigner who hav stayed in malaysia for more than 3 years and i need to conduct an interview regarding language maintainance... other than that, i'm having trouble in completing my movie review as i dun hav my pendrive wif me... my fren borowed it fro me n it was left in the class, therefore, all my work n important notes were gone... **extremely sad* besides that, i'm trying to search for the movie n it is frustrating... other than that, i nid to focus on other assignments too.. for example, for phonetics course.... hmm... we hav to interview a person again n analyze their speech ad also their pronunciation... in addition, we are required to come out wif a play using the standard english pronunciation which follows the BBC English.... the week after my mid sem break, i'm gonna hav two tests for Mandarin language which are the listening and speaking tests... plus, i nid to think of the APPLES's logo and also t-shirt&blazer design as we hav to submit them the week after the mid sem break... urgh... i'm nt gud in designing and i'm freaking nervous nw... haiz..... i hope i can come out with solutions on how to solve all my problems and also completing my assigments as i dun hav the commitment to finish them off like the others....

hope you guys are safe there......

i heard abt the tsunami warning from my mum....
she called me juz nw..
haiz....
i guess i gt to update myself with current news...
currently, my parents, youngest brother and both of my grandmothers are in Langkawi...
i hope that they are safe there..
i'm worried about them..
please, come back faster...
come back faster...
you guys are far too away from me...
T________T

i will forget you~

i will forget you..
it's a title of a song~
haha XD
did i scared you with such statement??
haha XD
this song is a very sad song...
and i really like the version that Park Shin Hye sang~ =)
anyway, i did a cover of tat song...
it was a short one...



plus, my voice does nt sound nice~ thank you~
see u guys next time!!
*disappear*

tiring day~

had the first cocurriculum meeting in the morning~
huhu~
wasted almost 1 and a half hour to sten to the talk...
=.="
it was bored....
after that, i had to rush home cuz my family already reached shah alam...
we're going bac melaka~
it was a long journey...
traffic jam~ >.<
haiz....
thn we went to tesco to buy some things..
and thn headed to jusco for dinner...
suprisingly, we met pn lau, his husband and also their son, micheal... (hope i din spell it wrongly)
thn, i headed to popular...
i wanted to buy some stationaries....
unfortunately, there's nothing that i can buy there... =.="
haiz...
it's a tiring day~

9/3/2011~

kelas hari ni semua cancel!
pergh! penat jeeeee....
tapi, we had a fun session in the class juz now...
mian truth or dare!
apa lagi!
mesti la yana kene dare~
sebab kepala otak lembab sgt...... (xtau nak tnye soalan apa)
begong kan??
dare yg pertama....
thanks to ika....
i hav to say 'saya suka awk' dekat mike!
anyway, i did it...
lepas tu... ramai pulak yg join game ni....
second dare yana!
thanks to everyone, i hav to sing!
memula nak suruh yana nyanyi lagu Adele...
errrr... sorry.... xhafal...
so, i ended up nyanyi lagu cina by Danson Tang...
*nasiblaaaaa sekarang dgr lagu cina balik sikit2*
tak sanggup nyanyi lagu Korea~ >.<
huhuhuhu~
pastu.... petang bajet nak pegi APB amik hadiah je....
bt i ended up teman ieka ke PAS~
diorang nak main bowling~
ieka bangun lambat...
kesian die kene pegi sesorang...
so, i pun teman la dieee~ =)
dah la dgn berpakaian baju kurung...
segan sgt!! >.<
tapi, seronok tgk diorang main bowling!
hahahha XD
pastu.... dinner time!
kitorang dinner kt Noodle Station...
huhuhu~
satu restoren tu bising dgn suara kitorang..
tak sangka pulak mee yg yana order ni pedas...
haiz... hampir menangis di situ!
haiz.... bengkak bibir n lidah hah! >.<
pedas sggh! >.<
lain kali xnak order dh!
menyesal!
anyway, i had fun juz nw!
i juz love my classmates~
=)

kokurikulum??

hmmm...
sabtu nie ada perjumpaan koko...
haiz...
macam malas je nak pegi...
>.<
apa laaa nasib ku....
koko sampai sem depan...
cepat2 la sem 3.....
cepat2 la habis koko ni...
tak lalu dh nak koko ni...
haiz..........
nasib la yana suka kawad.....
tapi, yana tak suka kem...
asal kem je, demam!
asal demam je, kem!
entah pape... =.="
tak mampu dah nak demam~ >.<
haiz....
malasnya nk gi koko sabtu ni....
NAK BALIK!!

tapi kaaaaaan.....
kalau balik pun, bukannya balik tg. malim...
balik melaka....
huhuhu~
nak jugak balik tg. malim~
rindu.....
boleh la jumpa kaman kong dgn maryam~ ^.^
huhu~ =)

*currently waiting for the day tat i can go bac to tg malim* =)

Happy Birthday Jia!!

today is Jia's birthday~
therefore, she is officially 20 years old today...
she's a very cute and kind girl..
she's also a very smart girl...
i'm happy to have a friend like her..
she understands me and accpets me as was i am...
=)
last but not least,
Happy Birthday Jia!! <3 <3

boyfriend~

nowadays i got interested in a Korean boy band named Boyfriend....
there are 6 memebers in the grp....
two of them are twins~
the main reason i came accross to this group is for the twins....
they are Youngmin and Kwangmin...
they are cute!
their songs are okei~
anyway, i enjoy their dance more~ =)
huhu~ =)
btw, they are much younger than me.....
i find them really adorable...
huhu~



Youngmin & Kwangmin! XD

my second semester~

huhu~
my frens said tat i'm a bit diff from the me tat i used to be...
for example, i talk in a very "girly" way....
means.... errr... lembut??
hmm... they said i'm not as "garang" *fierce?* as i used to be...
am i??
i am not sure about it....
maybe it's not the time yet???

besides tat, i deactivated my fb account last time....
i was too attached to fb and it's kind impossible for me to do tat..
bt i did it...
however, i hav to reactivate my fb acc due to some reasons...
i hav no other choice cuz my frens always post the recent news in our class grp...
besides that, my lecturer will also create a grp for our class for the subject he is teaching us...
why is everyone using FB whn i want to stop using it??
hmmm....
i doubt the way my brain works...
it's really weird...
sometimes i'll say tis, but, after a few seconds, i'll change my mind..
tat always happens to me nowadays...
i got tired with it... =.="

btw, i started my classes for second semester...
it was ok..
awesome lecturers are teaching my class this semester...
the dean, head of programme and the one lecturer that i like the most is miss han xiyue who came from China..
she's kind and cute... she'll be teaching me Mandarin language~
anyway, she's getting married the upcoming saturday~
i wish her happy~ =)

on top of that, i would like to congratulate my friends who gt their StPM results this evening!
they did a great job!
continue ur great job! XD
for those who did not get the expected results,
do ot give up ur hope...
do ur best~
strive for ur dream~
gud luck! =)

social network?

wad's the usage of socila network?
wad can i benefit from them?
can i just write anything that i want?
can i juz ignore everyone's feelings cuz of wad i want to say?
can everyone acept wad i'm gonna write or state in the network?
????????

social networks are used to hep us keep in touch with our friends?
aren't that wad the cellphones do too?
wad's the differences between them then?
?????????

if i write or state wadever i hav in my mind, they'll say "she thinks too much"
if i write about my feelings, they'll say "she's emotional"
therefore, wad's the usage of social network??
?????????

because of wrong interpretations from the usage of words, a long built friendship may collapse.... isn't so?
because of some friendly friends, gf or bf got easily jealous and they ended up aurguing... isn't so?
because of the jealousy, they can hurt others by their hurtful words.... aren't they?
?????????

this is why social network is a very dangerous place.....

i guess this is ne of the reasons why i deactivated my facebook account....
i got tired of all these...
however, i found that tweeter is a very interesting social network...
i hope so... *currently trying new things*
anyway, blogging will always be the best place to say wadever i want to say~ =)

takde kelas~

yeah!
hari ni takde kelas...
pepagi nk amik hadiah, tapi, tggu org tu lbh dari setengah jam....
xde pun.... >.<
lambat nau masuk koje... =.="
therefore, sye sentap!
ok...
next.... kitorang pun menapak la bas...
kelas kt menara... tingkat 9.... >.<
sebelum gi kelas, kitorang gi amik baucer buku..
yeay! boleh beli buku~ =)
tp, smpai2 dkt tgkt 9 sne jmpe lecturer...
die kata kelas stat esok...
huhu~
jadi, kitorang pun sggah Bistro for breakfast....
and thn, beli lunch....
pastu baru balik umah~
huhuhu~