lelaki?? huh~

hmm.... baru lepas baca blog kawan saya ni.... and, i found something interesting....

pemikiran lelaki...... sangat kolot and cetek!!!~ mulut x reti nk tutup!! kerja diorang, cakap, kutuk and cucuk dari belakang... kn???!! huh~ lelaki kan....

kepada lelaki-lelaki di luar sana, sapa yang makan cili dia la terasa pedasnya~~ saya nk ckp sikit nie.....

apa yang korang tak puas hati dengan perempuan?? hah?? x faham sungguh~ kalau kitorang pakai tudung, kata kitorang bajet alim la... saja nk menunjuk la... klau kitorang x pakai tudung plak, kata kitorang ni sosial la.... ponpuan x elok la... apa kes?!! apa ingat lelaki tu elok sangat la nak cakap macam tu?? TOLONG SIKIT~~ setakat mulut BUSUK macam tu.... masuk neraka la wei~~ ish! menaikkan kemarahan orang tgh2 malam nie tau!! lelaki tu baik sangat ke?? korang jugak la spesis yang merosakkan pompuan... tau nk berseronok ngan pompuan, thn buang je diorang macam tu!! eeeeeee~ sape yang teruk skrg nie??? hah??? cuba ckp skit?? sapa yg teruk skrg ni?? laki ke pompuan??

sopan?? kitorang nk cakap ngan sopan pun salah ke?? hah?? perlu ke kutuk kitorang sampai mcm tu?? mmg ada sesetengah daripada kitorang yg pakai tudung on n off... salah seorang ye, saya!! ye, saya!! ada masalah ke?? nak kata saya ni pompuan jahat ke?? nak kata saya ni pompuan x guna ke?? eh~ tolong skit, setakat mulut je boleh cakap benda x bermakna tu sume, mata mengeluarkan penangan yg x seberapa tu, igt boleh dpt kejayaan dlm hdp la??? BODOH!~ u will never succeed! NEVER!!! ini namanya orang bodoh ngan bangang~ eeeee~ benci la lelaki yg tau ckp je!! x suka!!

although i do not know who you are.... bt, i juz hope, oh no!! i really hope that you will just shut ur F****** MOUTH and GO!!!~ dun ever n ever let me know who you are... if not, you will be the first person that i will hate in my entire life!!~

i hope the guys out there jangan nk perasan yg korang tu baik sgt ek.... tolong skit... memang i x sebaik mana... tapi, xde la sampai nk menjatuhkn maruah seseorang kt sini... tp, unfortunately, entah mamat bodoh mana entah yg telah membuatkn sya ni bertindak memarahi semua lelaki2 di sana.... mintak maaf la kt sesapa yg terasa tu ek... x sengaja... tp, igtla.... bukan lelaki je ada mulut ek... pompuan pon ada mulut gak... aga2 ar skit!!~ ok??? paham??

jealous???

lol~

apa maksud semua ini???

it doesn't mean that when someone is already together, then you can be closer to him or her.... can touch him or her more.... without concerning about gossip.... that is sooooo wrong.... i dun like the way that kind of people think... it's just sooo wrong.... is it so hard to admit that you are jealous??? is that soooo hard??? you can just say that, 'erm..... i'm jealous.... sorry' something like that... is that sooo hard??? i dun think so... it's just you who are making it hard... it's just you who doesn't want to admit it... and it's just you who are too sensitive... who is that person to you anyway??? no one right?? so.... what makes you sooo jealous?? it just doesn't seem right... why don't you think about it again.... you action is making me angry... and your action is making other's people life in confusion, anger and mess! think about it again before you try to do it.... make sure the idea of what you are going to do went through your brain before you do it! understand tat?? huh~ ii hope you understand that~~ thank you~~

i don't understand~

hmm....

why such small things can be such a big deal when it comes to you???

don't you feel tired with all this?? don't you feel annouyed when such thing happen more than one time???

seriously, i'm very tired.... why can't you just understand??? i've been taking care of your heart for too long... i am not dare enough to hurt you.... however, people will make mistakes after all... you should understand that.... yes, maybe this is the first time you are turn your back on me... maybe before this i've done something wrong that i didn;t realized.... yes, i can accept that... but, have you ever think that i'm hurt too??? have you ever think that how much you hurt me before this??? have you ever think of what i feel all this while??? have you??? we are best friends... yes... we are.... but, why does things turned out to be like this??? why do you have to show me that stubborness??? why???

i don't mind if you want to ask about him.... i don't mind... but, please.... don't take advantage on that.... you keep on asking about him.... whole day.... it's not that you can't ask me about him... but, there's a limit for that.... i'm his sister.... i'm not his bodyguard or something.... i deserve to have some attention too.... you should know that.... you can ask... but not 24 hours ask me about him... and only him!!! you will always open the conversation by asking me whether i'm fine or not, what am i doing... but then, after that, you will just ask me what he is doing, where is he, and everything is about him!!!!! if you are on my place, imagine what will you feel???? iam obviuosly tired and annoyed at the same time... but, i just keep quite to make sure that you are not hurt... but, you never understand what i feel, what i think... NEVER!!!!

you are childish... yes... and i accepted that... but, you're childishness became worse and worse.... and that childishness had hurt me little by little.... that childishness also made me annoyed little by little... why can't you just understand me??!!!is it so hard to understand me?? is it so heart to open up your heart and say that you forgive me??? i didn't mean it... it's not what i wanted to say to you.... it's just a split of tongue... why can't you just understand?? and... it's not that i don't want to tell you that i went back.... and it's not that you are not important to me!!! why do you have to make that kind of assumption?? why???? why can;t you just understand that i love you and i care about you???? why can;t you just understand??? WHY!!!!!!!!

haiz..... i don't kmow what to say now... i'm speechless.... i'm weak... and i'm hurt.... it's not that only you are hurt you know.. i'm hurt too... please bear in your mind.... why can't you just change.... at least a bit.... be a little bit understanding.... why??? haiz.... i hope you can change... please, push that childishness aside, be a woman now.... a mature woman... that's all i ask from you... that's all... thank you~

haircut~

after keeping my hair for months, finally, i made a decision to get a hair cut....

i went to macy saloon juz now.... and i had my hair cut.... i dun look much different... juz.... it;s much shorter now.... haha XD

after having a hair cut, i washed my hair... the person hands are cold... so, whenever she touch my neck, i'll felt a sort of electricity going through my body... haha XD
it's the first time people washed my hair... huhu~

anyway, my head is very light now.... i guess having a short hair is not that bad... having short hair is much easier...

i shouldn't have done that
i should've ignore it
like something i couldn't see
like something i can't see
i shouldn't have ever looked at you
i should've ran away
i should've acted like i didn't hear it
like something i couldn't hear, like something i can't hear
i shouldn't have listened to my heart

chorus:
you showed me love without words
you gave me your love without words
you made me hold my breath, waiting for you
but you ran away like that

without word, love leaves me
without a word love throws me away
what should i say next?
my only closed lips were surprise
coming without words

why does it hurt so much?
why does it keep hurting?
except for the fact that you aren't here
though everything is the same

chorus;
you showed me love without words
you gave me your love without words
you made me hold my breath, waiting for you
but you ran away like this

without words love leaves me
without a word love throws me away
what should i say next?
my only close lips were surprised

without a word my tears fall
without a word my heart breaks
without a word i will wait for love
without a word love hurts me
i zone out, i become a fool
because i cry as i look up the sky

without a word a goodbye found me
without a word a goodbye came to me
i couldn't even prepare to send you away
i think my heart was surprised
without a word it came

without a word it went
without a word it left
like the fever before
It'll just hurt for a while
only scars will be left in the end

tat's an OST from a Korean drama You're Beautiful...
i love this song very much because this song potrayed the sadness that people can't split out in words....
anyway, to whom in love, make sure that you and your lover are happy... my wish is with you guys....
to whom that are in the situation as if the song is, be strong.... one day, your true love will come to you by itself...

poems~

in literature class, we were asked to come out with a poem each for limeric structure and haiku structure... so, below are my poems...

LIMERIC~
chocolate is sweet,
bitter yet sweet,
life is fun,
adventurous yet fun,
both are fun and sweet.

merepek je kn?? hahaha XD
ada lagi satu...

HAIKU~
i dislike all cats,
they sleep, run, jump, scratch and bite,
but, they all look cute.

that's the truth...
i pernah kena gigit dgn kucing tau...
cakar pun ada...
dh trauma dh...
takut~~ T__T