things tat happened in my life lately~

i was angry few days back.....
it's because of some little things that pissed me off~
and thanks to them because they made me realize how much i hate them~
lol......
to u guys~ dun think tat only u hate us.... bt, we hate u more~
n thanks for hating us~
i like it~ ^^
i was very happy when i gt to noe tat i'm in the second rank in the list of the haters...... although i was shocked at first, bt the happiness came to me after that~
haha XD
u guys are the one who put the barrier between us....
u guys are the ppl who can't accept us...
u guys are the one who wants to be discriminated....
we didn't do anything else....
we juz keep on being ourselves....
hey! u dun hav to follow everything single movement of us to be as popular as us~
be professional babes! =.="
duuuh~~ juz be urselves...... why did u hav to waste ur time on tis silly competiton??
it's crystal clear tat u r nt as popular as us man! please open ur eyes wider babe! =.="
i juz dun understand these silly peoples' mind.....
they are tooo childish, selfish and complicated man~
making me sick~ =.=
anyway, i'm happy if u r happy......
or..... juz try ur best to be happy if u r not happy at all~
thank you! =)

first day as a degree student~

it was an excited, happy yet sad day~
i was excited and happy cuz today i'm officially a degree student~ ^^
bt i'm sad cuz i feel tat i'm sooo old cuz i'm a degree student now~
okei~ i went to faculty tis morning...
so i registered myself...
and thn i chose my class.....
after tat, i walked back to hostel n rest... cuz the classes in the morning was canceled due to the registration.....
so, we attended the evening class...
the lecturer was kind and strict at the same time....
he gt his point whr he wanted us to speak english all the time no matter whr and hw~ ^^
so, i decided to do tat in the faculty??
cuz it will be weird whn i talk english suddenly wif my roommates~ haha XD
anyway, i hope tat my degree life and classmates would be fun and exciting!

roommates!~

i'm gonna tell a story bout my roommates~
okei~ actually, i dun really noe them yet.....
however, i knew them before tis cuz we were in the same faculty....
guess wad? we were all from asasi TESL! haha XD
tat makes me happy~ ^.^
my first roommate, let me introduce to you, rara!
yes rara.... my ex classmate from sem 2 and now she became my roommate! hihi~ love her~~
the next one would be jiha~~
she's a very kind and funny girl~ haha XD
luv being wif her~ ^^
last but not least, it would be intan~ yea intan~
ppl said tat she seldom stay in hostel cuz her house are too near~
however, she seems to be staying in hostel tis sem!
luv hanging out wif her....
anyway, she's a ruler.... as in too innocent~ haha XD
love to have the sporting and fun roommates~ hihi~

orentasi oh orentasi!

okei~
bru je lepas orentasi sabtu lepas....
n penat gilerrrrrrr.............
orentasi xbape best.... bt it was better than last time whn i was in asasi....
we had lots of fun together as mawarians except the mawar berduri part.....
had fun among ourselves~ haha XD
anyway, pendaftaran sume berjalan dengan lancar dan cepat!
seronok giler! dgn air-cond yg nyaman tuh! hahaha XD
best! bt, the waiting part was not fun at all~
anyway, i had fun wif my frens~~ ^.^
i hope tat my degree life would be more fun than now~

facebook~

"Sorry, we are experiencing temporary technical problem, please check back later."
kejadahnya???
takde time lain ker???
menyampah la~~
untung la fb ada technical problem~
sebelum ni takde pown~
=.="

T__T

haiz....
nak nangis~~~
T__T

struggling.......

it's really hard.....
seriously.....
although i prevent myself from thinking bout it...
bt, sometimes, it juz come to me...
anyway, i'm struggling wif my own heart n my brain....
lol.....
i'm hurt....
really hurt....
hurt by my own decision.....
hurt by my own thought....
haiz....
tired....
really tired.....
hope i cn juz forget bout tis...
tis thing really kills me lil by lil...
although i keep it in my heart, bear it all alone,
bt, i'm gonna burst someday....
n somehow, tat someday is coming.....
haiz.....
really hope i cn go through tis....
haiz....

I HATE WAITING!!

tis is the first time i had to wait for almost 4 hours to see a doctor for my medical check up...
and thanks for tat long hours of waiting,
i am very PLEASED now~
THANK YOU VERY MUCH~

dun ever think tat i'm going to the government clinic anymore.....
cuz, i'll die waiting thr.....
thanks~

pabila kegedikkan melanda~ lol~ XD

pernahkah terlintas difikiran anda untuk membuat cover??
lol~~ sye ada....
ni sebab terlebih gedik~ hahahaha XD XD
anyway, below is the video of my cover~~
tapi.... sebelum nk dgr sore sye yg tak bape nk sodap tu....
sila lah skrol ke bawah.... pause kn music yg ada kt bwh tu ye~
klau x... nnt bercampur aduk jadinye~ ^.^
huhu~~~~



anyway, forgive my mic... it sucks~~
and my voice too~ hahahaha XD XD
tis is juz for fun~
disebabkan kebosanan yg melanda di rumah....
so, i decided to make a cover~~
nice song~
i hope i din ruin the song~ lol~ =)

rindu...... rindu.... rindu......

ye..... sye rindu......
sye rindu pada mak n bapak sye.....
jgn salah paham ye.....
mak sye nadia aqilah n bapak sye haziq asyraf tau!~
diorang mak n bapak saya dan adk-beradik sye kt uitm shah alam dulu.....
haha XD (tertipu kah anda??!! haha XD)
ye... sye rindukan diorang...
sye juga rindu pada adk beradik sye....
iaitu.... kak long, kak ngah ngan usu....
rara.........mira..........mai............
bila la kte nk jmpa kn??? hmm~~ T__T
sodih!!
tidak dilupakan juga....
my dear Tan xinyi~~ rindu kamu juga sayang~~
myy no 1 best best friend.... cik atifa binti zainal abidin.....
copat copat balik!!! buka sesama!!! ish! rindu nieh~~~~~
pastu~~ tdk dilupakan juga....
laling sye sorang tu..... maryam syafiqah binti mohd sayuti~~
ooooo~ jual mahal ye.... lalalalalala~~ lain kali sye bwk awk jalan ye.....
ari tu tak jadi....
setelah apa yg kita lalui....
takmo gaduh lagi ye?? ^.^
basically, sye sgt happy dgn hidup sye sekarang...
kecuali!!! kepanasan badan yg meningkat dari masa ke semasa...
maksudnya.... dh nk demam la!! apa la.... tak paham ke?? lol~ XD
apa2 pown~~ sye sgt merindui rakan2 di uitm shah alam dulu...
as, naddy, alin, zaza, ash, aini, faliq, haziq, mike, ayssya, faiz, nyna~~~ dn lain lain.... ramai sgt~~ lol~~ rindu la~~ XD
anyway, i've lost ur numbers.... sbb tkaq fon bru... pas tu no tak leh nk retrieve sbb no kt dlm sim pown dh penuh~ huhu.... sedih!!
pape pown~ sye nk cau skrg......
nk errrrr....... berpoya-poya kt dlm youtube jap... hahaha XD
till next time~
with love, from liyana hasnan~ <3

wad does friendship really means??

i've encounter lots of problems regarding friendship.....
n.... i've learnt a lot about the friendship world.....
however, thr r still some other things tat i dun really understand.....
hw come i gt closer to tis one and gt further to tat one??
cuz they dun really get along together??
or.... i did a wrong decision??
hmmm....
i hav tis one special friend...
i understand her well and she understands me well too....
we were together since.... high school started,....
thr's nt many problem rises between us....
bt one day, i decided to get into another person's life....
i started to understand tat person...
i started to build confidence and trust in her....
i knew she's close to my bro..
yea... tat was my initial motive...
bt after some time, i learnt tat she wasn;t a bad person...
so, i accepted her in my life....
i never knew tat wad i did tat time would crash my friendship tie tat i had wif the other person....
a lot of things happened between the three of us,....
in conclusion.... the two of them dun get along wif each other anymore...
and i'm stuck between both of the person tat i love wif all my heart....
and....
i fought wif the B.... bt, we gt along after some time....
i noe i promised tat i won;t get along wif B since she broke my heart frequently...
bt, she's kinda different nw...
it's nt easy to change... bt, i cn see changes in her...
maybe tat's why i accepted her bac....
well.... however, i feel tat, recently, i'm quite far wif A....
the one tat i precious the most...
i dunno...
maybe it's juz me who think a lot...
maybe she wasn't thinking tat way...
lol.....
i was asking other people nt to think a lot...
bt, i am the one who think a lot....
juz... feeling uneasy....
maybe....
lol...
anyway, i juz dun understand wad friendship really means....
tat's all...
to the readers out thr,...
i juz splited everything out from my heart....
u may read n absorb it or u may juz leave it... lol....
gtg nw.....
more thinking to do.... hmm....

garden seafood 8th anniversary dinner~

okei~~
i made a record last nite~
i went out from house at 10.50...
n i stayed at broadway cafe which is a cafe organized by my boss's wife, for 2 hours ++ n i got home at 2....
lol~~
they gt game..
n the game was errrr..... kinda like luck??
i was kinda LUCKY whn i had to sing wif one of my big bosses...
n it was.... errr... terrible....
i guess???
lol~ hahaha XD XD
anyway, i enjoy the nite wif all of them...
although yesterday was my last day working thr, bt i'm gonna miss everyone of them~~
each n everyone of them in garden....
will miss you guys...
it's fun working wif such interesting friends~ ^^
hope to see you guys soon~ =)

my heart~

due to some reasons.....
my heart starts to shrink....
or....
you might say.....
the door of my heart are closing...
bit by bit.....
i hope tat no other thing tat will make my heart burst...
it's... enough... by now....
too many things happened tat made my heart broke into pieces....
bt... somehow... i manage to stick it back...
bt still...
i'm badly injured....
inside......
hmm.......
lot's of things to think and to do.....

i'll miss you~ we'll miss you.......

not long ago....
whn i was getting ready to work, u would always got up from the bed n asked me, are you going to work???
whn i was tying my shoe laces, u would asked, who are going to send you to work?? may i follow???
hmm...... i miss those questions now....

last time......
when i was much younger....
i would lie to you tat i had stomachache... (actually i din finish my homework... lol~)
thn, u would came to school as fast as possible....
thn, took me to doctor.....
u would buy me my fav food and my fav kuih....
u would let me do everything tat i like.....
now, i miss the care tat u poured to me.....
eventhough i lied to u....

last time.....
when u talked to me bout my studies...
you would say tat u wan to look at me growing older and older....
u wan to see me to hold the certificates of success in my studies....
u would wan to see me going to work....
and u promised me u will....
however, u are not even here now....
although u can't wait till tat time, i would study harder and prove to you tat i can...
and i would make u proud.... i will...

last time......
whn u said tat u stay wif us when the house ready.....
i was happy....
cuz my wish was to stay wif u....
bt, u went away befoe the house even ready....
u went away before we gt the chance to spend ramadhan n raya together....
i am sad.....

few days back......
i was playing and joking wif you....
u usually dun like to take pictures....
but tat day, i said, why dun u take pic wif me??
i cn take a look at the pictures whn i miss you.....
u agreed.... u agreed....
and tat was the only picture tat i gt before u left me....
i would treasure tat...
forever....

hmm~~~ u left too soon~
too soon....
anyway, i miss you..........
and... we all will miss you....

angry or hurt???

hmmm....

i dunno hw to say this.....

wad am i feeling now??

angry??? or.... hurt????

i dunno.... i really dunno...
i'm running out of words...

tiring days~

hav u ever walked into a packed and full restraunt??
or... hav u ever went to a wedding reception???
if u hav went to one of those places, i guess, u can guess how many ppl will be in such situation rite???

okei... i went to a wedding reception yesterday.....
we went to batu gajah from tanjong malim... 2 hours of travelling (actually)...
however, some unfortunatte things happened... the lorry's tyre flew out cuz the screw were out from its place....
so, we took a longer time to reached there....
we din even hav enuff time to prepare for the food and drinks....
however, no one understand our situation so, we were scolded cuz the lack of time...
i dunmind if the people thr wanna scold us...
but! dun ever n ever usue other language to scold us~ i cannot accept tat!! never!!
dun ever think tat no other people who understands chinese language except the chinese~
i'm a malay and i understand them!
u dun hav to hurt other people using other language...
why dun u juz say in front of us??? using eng or malay??
tat won;t kill us like wad u did which u used chinese language and scolded us behind us....
tat was too much~~~~ i can never accept tat!! >_<
u cn eat and drink as much as u wan bt stop talking bullshit behind of us!!!
i will never forgive tat kind of bastards~~
we arrived home at 2 midnight last nite...
it was a tiring nite...
although we gt a day off, but we can't off today because today is sunday~
usually we start our work at 11, but today we had to go early cuz thr's 30 tables of bus customers waiting for us...
so, i went early and i spent my whole afternoon serving food and drink non stop....
now, my legs are numb and i hope tat thr won;t be too much booking tomorro~ haiz~~
tiring days~~~~
i nid rest!!!!!

motif???

jangan igt diorang yg ko puja2 selama nie tu bagus sgt...
jgn nk buat org lain naik angin tgh2 malam ni...
mmg... mmg ko suke sgt ngan bini2 ko tu...
tak guna la klau pkai mic tp tak nyayi langsung....
asyik bergantung kt recorded music je...
memang penyanyi sejati diorang tu....
bagus la....
pastu... jgn la nk berlagak mcm ko tau sgt pasal super junior ek...
tolong cermin sikit diri tu....
i am into kpop before u r...
so, juz shut ur big fat mouth and get lost,...
i'm nt gonna tolerate tis anymore cuz u r making my best friend annoyed each time u talked about them....
hav u ever think tat those artists are not urs???
if u r the boss of the company, thn u cn talk like they are yours....
if not, juz shut ur fucking mouth and get lost...
i dunwan to see u making my friend angry anymore......

a picture of my favourite night~

wondering wad is it??
haaha XD XD tis picture was took on our Asasi TESL dinner....
why tis picture???
because tis picture shows our bond....
hehe~ ^.^

a picture of the cast from your favourite show~ ^.^

okay~~
favourite show??
can i choose drama??
i guess, i can! cuz, tis is my bloggie~ hahahahaha XD XD *crazy mode*
okay~~
my favourite drama will be DA CHANG JIN (tat is in chinese) which is The Great Jang Geum (in English)~~
it's a korean drama...
this drama shows how a young girl work hard and be the first female doctor in the century....
it was a very interesting drama which catched the eyes of all my family members a few years ago.... not many korean drama can catch the eyes of my family... ^.^
so, my favourite cast from the drama would be, Lee Young Ae who acted as Seo Jang Geum...
she's a very great actress and i juz love her~
below would be her picture from the drama~ ^.^

a picture of myself and the one tat i've been wif the longest~~ ^.^

here comes the 2nd challenge~~
i juz love this challenge~ <3 <3

a picture of myself wif the one tat i have been wif the longest???
i'll choose among friends.....
(i've stated thr CLEARLY tat i'll choose among friends.... cuz, basically, i've been wif my mother the longest rite?? tat is based on logic... i noe.... bt, i'll choose among friends..... understood??)

okay..... no offence..... based on my calculation,
below is the picture,



haha XD XD
yes! the answer is kaman kong~~ hahaha XD XD
she's my best friend since i'm standard four....
although gt other girls, bt i'll still choose kaman kong....

to, atifa binti zainal abidin, i love you sayang.... u r important to me.... u r always my very best friend... but, i knew u at form 1, still, u r nt the longest wif me~ somehow, i love you very much..... <3 <3
to xinyi, yes, u r someone important in my life too, but, i knew you since form 4, still can't beat kaman kong~ dun marah lo~~~ love you always <3
to, emerlyn, chiyan, pingping, yeeling n other friends tat i knew from standard 4, jangan terasa tau! cuz, kaman is the closest one wif me among u guys~ miss you guys! ^.^

hehe~ somehow, i wan to introduce my best buddies tat are wif me since a long time ago~~
i'll post few more pictures of me wif my friends... my best buddies!! <3 <3


haha XD XD tat's my sayang~~ ^.^


an important person in my life~ blublu~~ ^.^


my buddies~~ miss you guys!! =) =)

a picture of myself & 10 facts about me~~ ^.^

there.... a picture of myself.... only 1??? can i put more??? why??? cuz i want to~~ hahahaha XD XD XD

here comes another one~~ ^.^



okay~ done with pictures.....
now, bac to business~
10 facts about me???
hehe~~ wanna noe me?? (thn scroll down lo~ easy work! haha XD XD)

my name is Liyana... full name?? Liyana... yea... tat is my name... my name doesn't content any nur, or siti or.... etc. etc... hahaha XD XD
my father's name?? Hasnan..... aahhh! Hasnan bin Ahmad~~ So, my full full name is LIYANA BINTI HASNAN~ short and nice! <3 <3

okay, i'm..... errr....18 going on 19..... because my birthday is on 24th october 1992.... which equals to, i'm nt fully 19 yet~ hehehe~ still young, i noe~~ ^.^

i live in tanjong malim... yes!! wad??? u never heard of tanjong malim??? google it please~~ everything is on google now~~ ^.^ =P =P

how tall am i??? hmmmmm~~ 160++ i guess??? hahahaha XD XD i dunno! i dun have the scale at my house now... why dun u buy one for me??? XD XD XD

my weight??? hmm~~~ tat's a secret which i dun tell anyone... never mind i let you guess, hmmm.... below 100 yea~~ XD XD XD

my family?? i told you about my father already, ok!! my mother, her name is Nadiah Yan binti Abdullah, her real name is Yan Fong Lan... wad??? yea... she's a chinese... so?? she's my mother... i love her soooo much!! <3 <3 <3 i have 2 brothers, hazwan and hazman.... yea..... correct... be careful with your tounge, because when you say it out loud tooo many times, they'll twist~ hahahaha XD XD yes, the older one is hazwan and the younger one is hazman~~ ^.^

wad do i love??
hehe~ i love... CHOCOLATE.... yes... bt only BLACK CHOCOLATE... read my lips, B...L....A...C...K... BLACK~~~~ ok??? XD XD
besides that, i love to online, fb-ing, twitter-ing and tumblr-ing (which i seldom do) and oso, most of all, listening to music!! my favourite....

hmm.... wad else??? Ah!! i juz finished my study at UiTM Shah Alam which is a cool place where i met cool friends!! <3 <3 i took Foundation in TESL... wondering wad is TESL??? TESL is Teaching English as Second Language....

do i want to be a teacher??? of course,....... N....O.... NO!!! i took Foundation in TESL because tat time, in the university system, no other english courses were offered... so, i have to take TESL cuz of my passion towards English~~ ^^

and last but not least, i like BLUE!! which is blue colour~~ i like everything tat appears in blue.... bt, the blue must be beautiful... dun ruin my favourite blue colour!! ok??

tq~~ hihihi~~ ^.^
=)

30 days challenge~

hmm~ since i dunno wad to post in my blog....
i found tus, which is the topic thr, 30 days challenge interersting~~
hmm~~ i think... i can't accomplish it in 30 days....
bt i hope i cn finish it in 30 days~~
i got this from my friends, atifa~~
it has been a long time since i contacted her....
i'm busy with my work....
i hope she's happy and healthy rite now...
ifa, i heard ur finger hurt, are you ok?? is ur finger ok now???
although i din contact her as much as i would like the last time, i hope she knows tat i really care about her....
ok, bac to the topic, the 30 days challenge....
wad is it about???
wanna noe??
here weeeee go~~~
1st, a picture of yourself with 10 facts~~ (ok.... errrrrr~ wad to write??)
2nd,a picture of you and the one you have been the closest with the longest.... ^^
3rd, a picture of the cast from your favourite show.... XD
4th, a picture of your favourite night~~~ (i dun hav tat~ ooopppsss) >_<
5th, a picture of your favourite memory~~ (hehe~ i do have tat~~ XD XD)
6th, a picture of a person you'd love to trade places wif one day.... ^^
7th, a picture of your most treasured item~ T__T
8th, a picture that makes you laugh~ XD XD
9th, a picture of a person who has gotten you the most.... (errr.... i dun really gt tis)
10th, a picture of a person you do the most of your rutine with~ (hmmmmm~~)
11th, a picture of something you hate~~ >_<
12th, a picture of something you LOVE~~ <3 <3
13th, a picture of your favourite band or artists.... (hmm... which one should i put??)
14th, a picture of someone you could never imagine your life without.... XD XD
15th, a picture of something you want to do before you die~~~
16th, a picture of someone who inspires you~ XD XD
17th, a picture of something that had made a huge impact on your life recently... ^^
18th, a picture of your biggest insecurity~ >_<
19th, a picture and a letter~ (hihihihihi~ ~.~)
20th, a picture of somewhere you'd love to travel~~ XD XD
21st, a picture of something you wish you were better at~
22nd, a picture of your favourite book.... <3 <3 (i think i have 1~~)
23rd, a picture of something you wish you could change~ ( i noe!!! ~.~)
24th, a picture of your favourite day~ <3
25th, a picture of something that means a lot to you~~ (hmmmmmmmm~~~~~~)
26th, a picture of yourself and a family member~ <3
27th, a picture of something you are afraid of~ >_<
28th, a picture that can always make you smile~ =) =)
29th, a picture of something you wish you could forget~
30th, a picture of someone you miss~~ ^.^

okay, now i hope tat i can accomplish all these~~
starting today!! hihi~~ XD XD
love doing all these... bt, whr can i get all those pictures??? =.="
got to work on it rite now~~ =)

toilet~~

today is monday...
and today is the 8th day i'm working in garden seafood....
last week, i had to clean all the glasses, wipe all the tables and also the decorations....
this week, i have to wipe all the tables and the decorations.... and also my new job, clean the toilet~
it's nt clean the toilet once a day...
but, i have to clean the toilet 4 TIMES in a day~~ WOW!~
i can;t express it with any word...
phew~ i can juz do my job quitely and make sure tat the toilets are clean, arranged and smell good (we used ajax fabulosso~~ nice!!! <3 <3 i like it!!!)
however, when i came out from the toilet, i'll smell like the toilet, of course AJAX FABULOSSO! LOL~~~XD XD
thr's sooo much to learn and i have an interview coming soon in a few days...
so many things to do in a short time~ haiyo~
i dun like tis~
anyway, have a nice day guys~ ^^

interview?? again??

aiyo~~ i tot i dun hav to attend any interview anymore...
hmm.... anyway, i checked the uitm page today and i found out tat i have to attend an interview at uitm seri iskandar on 30th april 2011, 2pm~
errrrr..... 2pm??? tat is my lunch time~ LOL~~
haiyo~~ now i have to get the certs raady~~ AGAIN~~
interview for wad course??
hmm.... bachelor in communication, communication instructional~~~
wad's tat??? i dunno~~~ wad i noe is it gt something to do wif communication...
gt to ask my mum after tis... and do some research...
haiz... nt easy...
my mood nw???
interview mood~~ =.=

~waitress~

i never thought tat i will end up working as a waitress...
although i've push away tat offer for several times, i ended up working there...
tpoday is friday and today is the 5th day i'm working as waitress in Garden Seafood....
garden seafood, such a famous restraunt where a lot of customers will stop by no matter they are from Thailand, Singapore.... or... all over Malaysia...
at first, i thought, working as a waitress there requires me to juz, take orders and send the dishes including cleaning the table...
however, working as a waitress in garden seafood doesn't seem as easy as i thought of...
i have to more work such as cleaning the vegetables, the onions, the spoons and forks... basically everything?? =.= luckily i dun have to wash the plates.... if nt, i'll pull my face longer than it is now...
despite of the works tat came to me like a mountain, i can't stand one thing where i have to stand all the time....
haiz.... my legs~~~ they are aching every night~~
i can't do anything to them.....
anyway, i started to enjoy tis job although i dun really wan tis job at first....
and.... i started to understand the gossip going around the restraunt...
haha XD XD
i hope tat i can work peacely there and leave peacefully.....
P/S: i really hope tat september comes fast~~ (cuz i dunwan to work there anymore) XD XD XD

anyway, till next time guys!
have a nice day~~ ^^

i'll call you a 'beggar'....

are you wondering why i'm calling you a beggar??
huh~
i think u noe the answer very well...
or.... u dunno the answer??
you wan me to tel you??
of course!! i dun hav any problem wif it...
i call u a 'beggar' because you always act like an idiot to beg help from others...
u r also a 'beggar' because you always act like a persn who are lonely and beg sympathy from other people...
u r also a 'beggar' because you beg other people to believe in ur words and ur stories...
u r also a 'beggar' because you will do anything to beg for ur loved ones' attention and love....
but, do you noe that the way you used to beg other people is really annoying and make other people sick of you??
i guess you dunno that because to you, thr's nothing wrong in being pathetic and 'begging' from others cuz in the end, you will get everything that you ever wanted..
but, i am really sorry....
really sorry that i can't the one to provide all those things that you needed in your life...
please... stop being pathetic...
i cannot accept that anymore...
do change.....
thank you~ =)

O.O

why does it sound like i made a big mistake??
it's not even my fault...
u came at the wrong time...
dun give me tat kind of reply...
tat kind of intonation...
which made me a big culprit in this case...
i'm sorry if i hurt you..
but, dun exagerate it and make it like i made a big mistake...
i dun like it...
u noe the situation well...
so, evaluate it urself!
dun blame me...
and, it's nt tat i dun pity kir care bout you, but, the situation does not allow me to do so...
so, please be understanding~
thank you~~
thank you very much~~
=)

to my sissy~

tis entry is a special entry for karthiapurani thiruganaselvan, my beloved sissy~~
first of all, i wan to apologize to you cuz i forgot to wish you HAPPY BIRTHDAY (which is very important..... >.<)
haiz.. and i realized it late.... which was 2 days after ur birthday~
haiz... i'm sorry~
honestly, i dun hav any present to give you...
but, i have one video to give you...
it's a video tat me and my best buddies from uitm recorded it the night before we all seperated and went bac to each others' home (since our foundation dh habis)...
i'll tag you... and tis video is a secret video... (please dun expose it to anyone especially in fb, if u wan to let ur girl friends to see, it will be ok, but, please, dun insult us, our voice are nt tat gud~ hehe~~)
so, enjoy the song, it's a korean song entitled it has to be you by super junior yesung~~
it is a nice song~~
and... seriously, i'm sorry cuz i forgot to wish u on ur birthday~~~ haiz...
anyway, happy belated birthday sissy~
i love you very very very very very very very very much....
do always remember about me... cuz u r always in my mind... and u will alaways be in my heart... i will love you always... and you will remain as my sissy forever and ever....
i hope tat we can see each other after this... i really miss you... i miss your jokes, i miss your cute little face and i miss your smile~~ i hope to see them soon....
last but not least, study hard and take care of yourself sissy~~ if you have any problems or you need any consultation, you can come to me directly cuz i am your dustbin for wadever problem you have and i won;t be bored listening to all your problems cuz i'm very honored tat i can be your 'dustbin'....
so, again, happy belated birthday~~ and i'm sorry again~~

P/S: i'll tag you on the video on fb ok?? ^^

girls language~ ^^

hah~ i found this on nyna's blog~~
thanks to nyna again~~ tq tq tq tq~~
basically, tat is girls language....
so, guys, please dooo understand.. haha XD XD
to girls, we ar not complicated, we are juz special~ =)

the most nervous day in my life~

yea~~ correct...
as you can see above, today is the most nervous day in my life....
i dun feel this kind of nervousness even when i hav to take my spm result...
ok... at first, i hav to go for my MUET speaking test...
i hav to be thr ar 7.30..
hmm... nt everyone can be thr early rite??
so, i missed the chance to meet kaman~ my best buddy~~
haiz~ sooo sad~ sob sob~ T__T
however, i successfully arrived at smk khir johari at 7.28??? haha XD
so, we were quarantined and i was in the third group....
it wasn;t as nervous as the last time... but, i still can't speak well cuz i am candidate A... i hav to talk first,.... haiz... i dun like tat...
however, i managed to do better in group discussion!! (although i dunno i did it correctly or not cuz i almost forgot hw to do it... OMG~ *FAINT*)
haha XD XD
after the speaking test, i was quite sure tat kaman kong is busy wif her study, so, i decided to go home....
after i had my breakfast, i suddenly remembered tat my foundation TESL result will be out today...
so, i went online and checked my result~~
okei~~ i was quite shocked wif my result... i tot i did poorly in the exam cuz the first grade tat i saw was C+... >_<
when i look carefully, yes! there is a C+~ haiz... i dun like the presence of 'C+' in my result slip~ >_<
anyway, my pointer went up this time.... i managed to get 3.41~~ HAPPY!! XD
but, if, i gt higher for basic principle in education (which i gt C+) i would have gotten 3.5 (my target pinter)~~ haiz... sad and happy at the same time~~ >_<
other than BPIE, i did well in other subjects.... ^^
as for my grammar, i got an A!!! haha XD XD i can't believe it~~ AAAAAAAAA~~ besides tat, i gt A- for drama, reading and Listening & speaking~~ i gt B+ for islamic education and also writing (which i can't believe tat!! i tot i did really bad!! T__T anyway, i'm grateful~) and last but not least, a B for literature~~ huhu~~
i'm happy~~ but, i'm still nervous... currently, i'm waiting for the interview list from KPLSPM~ haiyo.... too many things happen in one day... i'm gonna faint~~
please.... do let me check the list~~ >_<
i'm begging you~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ =(

jealous much??

i think u hav to agree wif me with this....
every human is just full of jealousy...
dun u agree??
a guy will be jealous if his girlfriend went out or just even talked to another guy...
a girl will be extremely angry and jealous to see her boyfriend did the same....
LOL~
seriously, i dun understand why such high doz of jealousy are needed in a relationship...
dun u think that too much jealousy will somehow ruin ur relationship??
i don't like jealousy...
cuz, it will always cause me headache....
when someone is jealous, u tend to do things that u never imagine u'll do...
such as, attacking innocent people...
excuse me!
are u married to him/her??
if the answer is NO, then who are you control him/her??
are you trying to say tat ur partner are not allowed to be friend with any other people??
then, how is ur partner going to live as a human??
human need friends.... do you noe tat??
letting ur jealousy ciontrolling urself is something wrong...
extremely wrong...
hav u ever regret wad u did??
i bet no!
cuz,, the people like you never use ur brain and think...
instead, you put ur brain on the floor... cuz to you, feelings are more important...
u let them conquer you without thinking about the circumstances...
u r juz tooooooooooo emotional....
think rationally babe...
u won't die if you think first before doing something...
it will turn out to be better than u think...
why dun u try it instead of just being emotional???
LOL~~
i tot i am the only victim here...
but, my best friend is also a victim to those emotional person...
emotional person who didn't fully use their brain...
haiz....
i hope i won't meet that kind of person again~~

till next time guys!~
bye bye~ =)

^^

i received a letter today....
it was a meaningful one....
u did grew up my dear~ ^^
glad to hear tat~ XD
anyway, thanks for all those things you have done for me...
i will never forget that... ^^
and, i din noe tat i gave you sooo many pictures~ haha XD
nice~ XD
a reply??
i dun think u nid tat...
cuz, i've always take you as a very good friend to me...
a very good and special one....
though we were nt as close as before, bt, staying as best friends were the best choice...
oh!! and pliz dun avoid me anymore... it hurts!! >_<
and! dun think sooo much~ pretty pliz?? hmm~ u'll get old easily if u keep on tat way...
ah!! and... dun be sad anymore... u dun look gud when u r sad... nah~~ i dun like~
so... be strong ok?? i'm always with you~ =)

grrrrr~ geramnye!!!!!~

ok.....
ada lah sorang makcik nie... mke xde la tue mana... kakak kot... ntah la.... lantak la!!
dh la dtg umah poh2 x bg salam, i mean 'hi', ikt suka ati bapak die je masuk, pas tu ada ke patut die ckp saya, ye, saya, LIYANA BINTI HASNAN ni ORANG GAJI???? gila ke?? buta ke?? bodoh??? ke semua??? eeee!! tolong la!!!
apa???? ponpuan keje die ddk kt dpn, tgk tv, mkn, tido, GEMOK je ke???
EH!! tmpt pompuan kt dapur la minah!!!
mmg sye ada kt dapur tgh cuci sayur, salah ke??? bodoh la minah nie!!! MAMPOS LA!
tau la die kaya! xpyh nk BERLAGAK!! MAMPOS GI LA DGN DUIT KO YG X SEBERAPA TU!!! APA??!!! IGT MATI BOLEH BWK DUIT KEW??!! MASUK NERAKA GAK!!! LIKE I CARE!~ excuse me~~
dh la mntak nasi lemak.... eh, org pegi kuar beli, dh la kene kejar anjing, lg nk komplain nasi lemak tu x sdp?? igt sye yg masak ke??? agak2 la~~ KOMPLAIN JE~ MEMBEBEL~ sume ada~ tolong la... dh tua2 pun nk komplain mcm tu.... nk ckp dpn org~ ske kn mengaibkn cucu sndiri dpn org??? ada x pk penat org, ada x pk kesusahan org?? tau pk diri sendiri je... dh tua2 pun penting kn diri sendri je~ eh! kalah budak la!!
next time! dun ask me why i dunwan to come and take care of you anymore!!! >_<
i had had enuf of you!

text and calls??

ok....
did you ever get any texts and calls from unknown people??
oh~ i did.... thousands of times...
and i hate it...
mark my lips.. I, H...A...T...E... I..T.. I HATE IT!!~ >_<
understood tat??
hmm.... why those kind of people exist in this world??
giving me uncountable headache and heartache... >_<
oh yeah! last time, my kak ngah received a phone call from an unknown person who was looking for abi?? i guess?? i can;t remember though.. cuz, i dun really remember bullshit people... huhu~ and then, that 'person' or should i call him/her 'ALIEN' doesn;t really understand Bahasa Malaysia, although him/her is a malay... and then he/her kept on saying that my kak ngah is the girl that he was looking for... DAMN HIM?HER!!! S..T..U..PID!!~ or.... PIG!!! haiz.... useless person.. thn he/she texted my kak ngah and gave us headache... my god... he/she is really an ALIEN~ my god~ >_< and he did it again last night!!!!! >_< whatever!! just livein your own way stupid alien~
phew~~~ that the story from my kak ngah experience...
now, my own experience, there's this one guy named putra, he said that he wanted to be my friend... okay... and then he told me that he got my number from my friend named zeck... that is bullshit!!! i never had a friend named zeck.. and how does he know that i'm from method?? wow~ that was awesome... however, after countless questions threw by me, he did not reply meafter that... hmm~ NICE!! bt, i'm still confused... cuz, i dun really know where he got my num... anyway, just chill... i'm not going to entertain all this anymore.... sooooo tired with this.... huh~
ok... now, i think i'll work on a story... huhu~ sooo long din write a story cuz all these while i've been doing ACADEMIC WRITING which i'm not gud in and i dun really think that i'll do well in my exam... my god~~~ >_<
anyway, i'm gonna pray to god for that... i've worked hard on it.... =(
till next time guys!! XD tata~ =)

dinner night~

okay~~ dinner??
it was my first time attending dinner...
i just wore a simple short dress with a pair of long white pants....
thn, i was forced to wear this shawl~ huhu~
ok.... tat was my first time too~
so... we went to the hotel uitm for the dinner...
although we were late for 30 minutes, it was fantastic...
and the food there... i can say that it was awesome, EXCEPT, for the salad in the beginning~ >_<
anyway, there were lots of performances that night....
singing, poetry recitation, singing, funny act show, singing... and basically, singing! haha XD
we had a lot of fun together... it was a big family although not everyone fron the asasi tesl was there....
and... the candle... we ligthed up the candla that was given to us, and it represents our bond... the bond that we created in those 10 months.... XD
anyway, we also cried after all the joy that we had...
it is because the sadness that overwhelmed us when the time for parting came to us...
hugging, crying and giving support to each other were something precious that we won't have next time cuz we are about to be far away from each other...
to all my friends out there, remember this, whenever you are, wherever you go, i will always be in your heart.. and i will always remember you all~ =)

wad is your problem??!!

mmg sye kwn ngan die sbb korea jew!!!
mmg sye xde motif lain nk kwn ngan die lg kn????
mmg sye kwn ngan die sbb nk tau psal T-ARA jew!!!
mmg sye xikhlas nk kwn ngan die!!!
mmg sye kwn ngan die utk amik kesempatan die jew!!
MMG!! MMG!!!
PUAS HATI??!!!!!!
mmg sye sakit hati skrg nie!!!!
kn awk xske korea.....
xyah la kwn ngan kitorang!!!
senang kn???
apa yg susah sgt????
jealous la konon.....
xtau la nk ckp apa dh!!~ >_<
ha'ah kn..... bak kte salah seorang drpd adk brdk kitorang, "wad's the point of pretending in front of us since you dun like us???"
thank you~ =)

yes! u always do wadever u like!!

EXCUSE ME!!!~
who do you think you are???
our parents???
hey!!~ mind ur own actions ok???
i can't accept the fact that you always pretend in front of us....
wad??? do you think we all like you?? SORRY!!~
yesterday, you were sooooo angry and bang the car door....
and today, without any apologize, u juz came to us with that stupid innocent face and stupid happy mood and greet us....
waiting for us to get moving...
u wanna join us???
hey!!~ wad is tis all about??
who do you think you are???
why do you always stick with us??
is is really hard to live on ur own??
and you invited him to eat lunch with us???
WTH???!!!!
tis is really ridiculous!~
with his stingyness and also boredom that he showed us, do you think tat we can stand him??
HUH!~ i can't stop being angry!~
i really dun understand you....
why do you hav to make our life miserable??
why?? WHY?? WHY????
i juz dun understand!~
anyway, thank you very much because you made my life miserable and suffering~
THANK YOU VERY MUCH!~ THANK YOU!!!!~
=D =D =D =D

mak, abah, kak long, kak ngah and usu~~

hah!~
nie nk cite nie...
belakangan nie.....
sye ada family bru tau!!~
parents sye haziq and nadia~~~
sweeeeet giilleeeerrrr parents sye~~~
hmm~ cite pasal adk beradik plak....
sye nieee... anak ketiga~~~
sye kak chik~~ hehe~
kak long sye rara~~ kak ngah sye mira~~ hihi~~
and usu sye maiyamin~~
family kitorang happy giler~
i love my new family!~
<3 <3
luv ya all always!!!!!!!

congratulation!!~ chukkahae!!!~

to my dear flend~~
my dear loommate......
i dunno u noe my blog add or not...
tapi ar.... x kira... nk jgk post!!!~
ok.....
ceritanya mcm nie.....
ada la olang tu.... ada org ckp org tu ske die!!~
YEAH!!!!!!!!~~~~
congratz!!~
ye... lepas beberapa kali terseksa jiwa dan raga akibat merana sakit ati.....
sebab lelaki yg menyakiti hatinya...
akhirnya.... AKHIRNYA~~~~~
someone appeared!!!~
yeah~~~~ i am glad and happy and bahagia tau!!!~
yeah~~~
alamak!~ tetiba teringat plak lagu T-ARA....
i demam T-ARA tau skrg!!~
SKE SKE SKE SKE SKE SKE SKE!!!~
lagu wae ireoni..... knock knock knock knock!!~ hehe~~
ottokae??? chowahae??? hhihihihihihi~~~ XD XD
i noe i noe i noe~~~~ XD XD
be happy my dear!~ =) =)

door??

yea.... door....
wad??
you think tat the door is ur dad's door???
u think u cn bang on the door because u wan to??
are you crazy???
i guess u are....
dun u noe tat there are human who are sitting there???
u dunno??
or u r blind???
hah??
hey!~
dun think tat u r always rite ok???
wad?? u think u take law thn u will be a very successful lawyer huh??
no!!~ i dun think so~
anyway, for another person, u think tat car belongs to you???
wad??? if u are angry of us, can't u juz say it out loud??
is there any problem???
my god........ u are making things worse...
actually, i dun like you...
so, i dun feel lonely if i lose you....
i dun even put a little damn care of you are not my friend anymore... ok???
understood????
hmm~ fine...
i'm juz angry~~ XD XD
and.... writing test....
i dun like the test~~~ >_<
anyway, i'm much more pissed off with the girl who bang the car door juz now....
no manner at all!!!~
dah la naik kete org, tp,x sedor diri!!!~ apa???? igt aku kisah???? tlg skit....
nk mengamok konon, aku pon boleh mengamuk la minah..... =P

why are we strangers now??

yes... tat was a title tat catched my eyes..... and i decided to read them....
hmm~ below are the content~

i know what happened in the past hurt us,
but, why..?
we are worst than strangers now..

even strangers look at each other at times,
but not us..
it was bad,
it is!
still, a simple hi could not be that hard, right?
or maybe even, a quick glance?
no?
it's still a no, hey?

i never imagine it would be this difficult,
i mean..
we moved on, right?
but why can't we..?
say hi..?

i never care when it was the first time i saw you after months of, you know what..
but when it was the second time,
and this time we were closer,
the question suddenly popped.

WHY DO WE AVOID EACH OTHER SO MUCH?


we know the same thing won't happen again,
but..
but..
i just can't see the rational of that.
will a simple smile hurt us?
will a simple hi torture us?
will a simple look bleed us?

no..
i don't think so..
you see..
we live so far from each other before,
and we know we will be going different path after this,
then,
why can't we just be nice to each other?
for once?

getting over it is not easy,
but a simple thing won't tear it apart right?
i mean, we can't fall in love in a second right?
then, just a hi, please?
we used to be so close,
shared everything..
but we are strangers now..
with one reason that i can think of,
no..
i can't think of a reason..
i can't think of anything..

i guess you really hate me now,
(if hate is the word, it hurts)
saying good bye for the last time is meaningful,
smiling at one another, is priceless..

just live life to the fullest..
if i can't say hi, then..
i'll say good bye, here..

may you make history,
so i get the chance to book them..

nice of knowing you, stranger..
you are the most important chapter in my life..

this was written by a friend of mine.... it really touched my heart....
hmm.... after what had happened, do we have to be strangers??
i don't know... i am not sure about this either....
maybe i tried too much to make it easy on you...
but, you ended up avoiding me.... din u??
hmm.... maybe stay as a stranger is the best...
but, i dun think so....
anyway, tat was just my opinion...
it doesn;t matter rite??
hmm... as long as u r happy and far away from the sadness that i've caused you, tat is fine wif me....
u can keep on avoiding me if you want...
a week, a month, a year, or... forever...
as long as you are happy...
only tat matters...
hmm~ okei...
i've done writing out all my opinions, now, gt to go back to my books~
to my friends who are having their holiday now, happy holiday!!!
to them who are preparing for exam like me, gud luck!!!!
and to them who are depressed or tension, cheer up!!!
and... last but not least, let's pray for the japanese.... i juz heard the news and it shocked me... maybe Allah S.W.T. wants us to be more concern and give us warning... anyway, dun forget to pray for them.... AMIN~ ^^
till next time~~ =)

studying??

LOL~
it's sooooo funny...
ok....
at first... me and my best friend, kecik, went out from mawar at 12.30++
thn.... we straight away hopped on a bus labelled 603 to get to seksyen 2...
thn, send the laptop to meranti... and head towards kfc...
we first had our lunch....
and then, we eat... for about... erm.... an hour?? haha XD XD
u noe girls.... haha XD XD
thn, we started studying....
but, i was busy copying movies and videos....
huhu~
thn i joined my friends and studied literature.....
it's not tat easy...
it requires me to think..... A LOT...
i hate that.... =.="
ok... moving on...
thn, we had some break....
haha XD XD
which is..... NOW!!~ huhu~
i'm still having my break while both of them are practising their PHONETICS which i am not really good at...
cuz... i DIN PRACTISE!!!~
my god~~ i need to start practising now...
and join them....
hmm...
till next time~
bye bye~~~~

coldness in the INTEC LIBRARY~

currrently, i am typing in the library...
at first, i thought this spot wasn't that cold....
cuz.. it was warm at first when i came in...
after 2 hours staying in this library at the same spot successfully without moving to anywhere, the coldness started tto haunt me...
i dun like this...
actually, i can stand with the cold...
but... BUT.. BUT....
my hands and lengs can't stand it....
i have to find something to do so that my fingers will not numb...
tat is why i am typing this...
hmm...
eventually, this is the 3rd post i typed today...
i dunno...
there's just too many thing sin my head...
my brain cells are having some traffic jam inside there...
i need to let something out...
however, something really serious did not come out yet...
i dunno how to make it leave me...
it juz won't leave me..
i hope it won't affect me..
i really need to focus on this critical time in ASASI TESL~
i hope i can success this time...
my targeted pointer is 3.5 and above~
i hope i can achieve it~ ^^
anyway, gtg now!~
bye~~~ till next time~ <3 <3

are girls complicated???

maybe to guys we, "GIRLS" are complicated....
it is because u are guys....
we as girls, also think that u, "GUYS" are complicated as well...
it is not easy to be a girl or a guy....
we are just being ourself....
it is not easy to understand everything about the opposite sex...
maybe to some guys, saying somesweet things and care about the girls will make the girls fell for you more, however, have you all,guys, ever think that we also have feelings??
we might fell for your sweet words or maybe care...
but, please do not pretend about it...
although we can't see the real you inside ur 'immune body', but, sometimes, we, as girls, we can feel it...
we have feelings too.....
dun step on us like that....
if youguys think that we all girls are soooo complicated, then why do you guys need us at the first place??
why dun u just pair up with a guy then...
guys are not complicated what....
we,the girl speciesare weird and hard to understand....
then, just leave us...
we can stand on our own... WITHOUT GUYS~
thanks~~ <3
that wasmy opinion~ <3 <3
no offense please~ =)

organ donation???

haha XD
i have just finished giving my speech on organ donation, a gift of life....
erm........ at first, it went out well....
but, up to the third paragrapgh, i tend to read from the text in my dear lappy.....
however, i just love my speech...
muahahahahahahaha XD
it has been sooooooo long since i gave a speech in front of everyone else....
it's great to give a speech again...
although this is not a competition, but this is for the sake of my grades for TSL032, Listening & Speaking.... important tau!!!! XD
hmm...
now, i'm in love with the topic of organ donation.....
although there were already 155,553 people had registered for organ donations, but, only 309 cases of organ donation were recorded and from that amount, only 20 cases of multiple organb and tissues transplantation...
see..... from the statistic released in NTRC, we are clear that organ donation are needed in Malaysia... ^^
so, for more information, (erm.... i am not paid for this) okey..... erm.... for more information, for the people in Malaysia, u can contact NTRC at 1800-88-9080 or just visit their website, at www.agiftoflife.gov.my.....
let us all suport organ donation by pledging to be organ donor!! <3

assignments?? DONE!!!

yeah~ as u can see... i have done all my assignments...
this week is the most tiring week of all cuz i have been using my brain juice too much to complete all my assignments.... i hope that i did well... ^^
anyway, although my assignments are done, but, i still have islamic education and book review presentations, persuasive speech and also tests~
however, i dun really mind with it.... as long as there are no more written assignment to be done... i had had enough of it..... >_<
i can't bear it anymore.....
PHEW~~ taking foundation programme is indeed a fast track, but, the fast track had been compressing me with all those work and presentations during this two semesters.... although i had a tough time, but, i had fun with my friends too...
u noe wad??? we are having a Asasi TESL Final Dinner next sunday.... and.... I AM GOING~~~ LOL~ i dunno.... at first, i dun feel like going, but, after some deep thoughts, i decided to go and have fun with all my friends because our programme is coming to an end and some of us may pursue their studies else where and we might not be meeting again... i dunwan to regret anything, so, i wish that i can have lots of fun with them on the coming sunday night~~
besides that.... i am aiming for higher pointer this semester... i dun care.... i need some changes in my methods of study.... i need to get better result this time.... i have become more confident on my writing and i am still working hard on my grammar.... i hope that i had improved at least a little bit since i have started this foundation programme... english isn't tat hard if i really immerse myself into them.... i juz love languages... and i hope that i can learn more languages after this... that's the only dream that i am holding to all this while~ <3 <3
oh! i gt to get going and study for my test...... literature test coming up in an hour~ LOL~ XD XD XD
till next time guys!!~ bye bye~

drama~

huhu~
i must admit tat i dun really like drama class at first...
cuz, i hav to act a lot....
and i dun like it....
however, my perception towards drama changed when time goes on...
i found tat drama is something interesting and i had a lot of fun during drama class~

hmm~
last week, on 19th february, ourclass had performed our final drama in the intec great hall...
wanna noe wad is the drama about???
haha XD
it's a nice story...
this drama is about a little girl... who went crazy.... and she had this hallucination of killing people.... well... she killed those people without she realizing it... and, her 'dead' brother,Allen covered for her~ huhu~ a psycho and emo girl.... ayssya did a really good job.... haha XD nice drama guys!!~ XD

here's our posters for the drama~
sorry for the late post~ huhu





owh~ there's another pic that we took~ and i think tat it's nice~ XD

孤单？

孤单。。。。。。
我想，孤单是好的。
不用为那些复杂的事繁。。。
也不需要为那些心痛的事哭。。。。

孤单是好的~
好的~~

did i do anything wrong??

to u....
i hope u noe who i am talking about...
i'm sorry if u r hurt cuz i can't go out to the riverside with you last time...
i'm really sorry...
hope u forgive me...
i dunno...
i juz feel like u r angry of me... or maybe hurt....
i'm sorry if i did make u angry or hurt...
how are you nowadays???
i hope u r ok.... and happy...
sorry... i am quite busy now at tis time...
sorry i din contact u....
sorry if i hurt u....
i really am....
hope tat u r ok now... be happy...
i'm juz not sure wad i did...
please tell me....
please~
i really miss you~

好复杂~

对，我是生气你的。。。
可是我不知道为什么每一次我见到你的时候，
我都会把一切忘掉。。。
我很疼你，没错。。。
可是，我却不知道你的想法。。。
我试着去了解，可是，我永远都不会了解你。。。
对不起。。。
虽然和你见面了，我还是找不到我所要的答案。。。
我希望你能告诉我那些一直以来我所寻找的答案。。。
希望我们能回到以前的时光，一起度过那条长长的蓝河，一起寻找我们的幸福~

i.... dunno~

hmm...
i juz done reading asmira's blog...
wad happened to her happened to me before...
so, i noe how does it feels like...
i dun like it either...

i noe tis one guy...
i seldom talk to him during school time....
however, we met at FB and we talked...
so, he became my brother...
tat time he was very sad because of his EX-gf~
bt thn, all of a sudden, they couple back...
and i was happy for him..
suddenly, i got a message at FB...
this girl attacked me...
and she said, i was flirting with his bf~
excuse me!!! wad?? flirting with him??
i hav lots of work to do, and do u think tat i HAV time to flirt with him???
and she wrote smthg bad bout me in her blog..
tat was awful...
she's from kedah..
so, her language was.... RUDE~
and i HATE tat~
u r studying in matrik, but, u can;t even answer a simple question tat i wrote in english...
tat was PATHETIC!!!
dun ever act like u r the GOD of everything and scold ppl juz because of ur STUPID JEALOUSY!!!~
i dun like tat kind of ppl..
and, fro my bro, u r soooo STUPID and WEAK because u let that kind of girl to step on ur head...
i juz can't believe tat someone as ALIM as you will juz let a girl as BAD as her to be by ur side...
u r juz.... USELESS~
tis is the first time i release a;; tis anger tis way..
i hope u understand...
i didn't contact u because i was sooooo tired with all this stuupiiid arguement with the idiot~
i dun hav the energy anymore...
and please....
let me go..
i'm not ur sister anymore...
thank you~

so, next time, dun judge ppl by it's cover...
i learnt that now...
tat girl looks beautiful and nice but, her heart was all BLACK!!
it was painted black~
and i dun like that kind of person~
get out of my life!!!!~
tq~
phew~~

happy chinese new year~

happy chinese new year to all my friends, and my family... ^^
this year, we stayed in a hotel...
why???
cuz... my grandma's house became the victim of the heavy rain...
got wad i meant??
i think u got it already....
anyway, i dun really like the hotel...
for some reasons~
somehow, my chinese new year was just the same as the previous years....
we celebrated chinese new year in my grandma's house...
after the ang pao giving ceremony, my uncles, unties, grandma and cousins started to play mahjong~~
i heard, one of my cousin lose around RM600~
wow~ tat's a lot...
anyway, it's a gud day....
and everyone enjoyed...
i bumped into one of my roommate last night in jusco...
i was soooo shocked when i saw her...
haha XD
i tot her house was at klang~
i din noe she got a house at melaka...
haha XD
anyway, happy chinese new year to everyone...
and... happy holiday!

seriously.... i am SPEECHLESS!

i dunno wad r u trying to prove to me... i dunno wad r u trying to do... i dunno wad's in ur mind.... and please... i hav no time for tis... if u wan to continue wif the game, thn u cn go on by urself... thanks.... i dunwan to join u.... i'm tired... i've promised my mum to do better this semester... so many things happened... n ur ******* childishness is pissing me off!! can't u juz like admit ur fault.... i was expecting something will change.. bt., u din even change... u r such a ****.... i dunno... i now i am rude nw... bt, i am really tired.... whn i came to the point like accepting u bac... u made smthg stupid up again... wad's ur problem!! i dun understand... yea rite... juz like u said... 'dah la....' i cn juz say tat... no problem at all!! i am very glad to do so.... thank you~~ as u wish my princess... i am no one though... nt important.... so... AS U WISH..... u cn do wadever u like... u dun hav to tell me u r here... u r there... u dun hav to tell me tat u wan to see me... cuz... i'm nt important to u anymore.... cuz to u.... we're like... OVER~ isn't tat so?? okei... i gt no time to waste anymore... thanks for ur love all this while.... anyway, i'm tired with this stupid friendship... ^^
hope u r happy always!! ^^
sincerely from me, liyana binti hasnan~

cause and effect essay.....

the truth is....... i dun like writing an cause and effect essay....
i'm not really good in writing them...
i can only do weel in descriptive essay or narrative essay...
thosetwo are my type of writing style...
i prefer something that came out of my mind all of a sudden than something that were logic and concrete....
haiz......
writing and cause and effect essay is really a big deal for me...
i don;t know what to write....
everything must be in order...
introductory paragraph, body paragrah and concluding paragrah....
main idea, topic sentences and transitinal sentences...
transition, vocabulary and quotes....
haiz....
can't i juz write without thinking bout all of that?
it's giving me unknown numbers of pressure and i dun like it.... SHIRO!!! (it's 'i dun like' inn korean ^^)
and.... the worst part is....
this particular cause and effect essay is my assignment 2 for college reading 2 course.....
hmm...... i dun like it....
it's frustrating.....
i hope it won;t take longer time to finish it...
i need to get the essay edited by my mum before 4!!
and now is.... 2.15...
oh my dear ideas~
please~~ please~~
come to me~~ come to me~~~
i'm begging you~~ please~~
pretty please~~
>_<

phew~
gotta get going with my hanging essay now~
tata~~ till next time~

^^

erm........

tis week is kinda.... bored.... hmm~
i wonder why~

anyway, some cool stuff happened....
i became a big big big big big light bulb today...
went out with a couple and had.... erm.... breakfast+lunch+dinner.... erm.... how to make it short??? *FAINT* LOL~ XD XD
anyway, i became a victim to them....
there are both of them, but i'm particularly alone!
haha XD XD

i dun mind.....
but, i'm shy! *covering my face with my palms* LOL~
thanks my dear sister n brother in law...
thanks a lot...
i shall seek for my revenge... SOON~~~
hahahahaha XD XD
okay~ tat was fun! =P

hmmm.... there are the new batch of korean students came to our fac to learn language...
they had programme going on.... erm... sort of welcoming programme i guess...
i dun really noe bout it...
but.. wad i can say is.... one of the guys, he looks like minho from shinee..
he really is.... he's tall... n fair!!
haiz~ why can't i be as fair as they are??
haiz... really can't understand that...
anyway, it's good to have international friends~
hihihihi~ ^^

phew~ i think i'm getting flu...
hmm.... really tired now.... but... i can;t sleep.. LOL~ XD
funny huh?? hahaha XD XD
gotta eat medicine now.... so tat, my flu won;t get any worse...
till next time! see ya!!

lelaki?? huh~

hmm.... baru lepas baca blog kawan saya ni.... and, i found something interesting....

pemikiran lelaki...... sangat kolot and cetek!!!~ mulut x reti nk tutup!! kerja diorang, cakap, kutuk and cucuk dari belakang... kn???!! huh~ lelaki kan....

kepada lelaki-lelaki di luar sana, sapa yang makan cili dia la terasa pedasnya~~ saya nk ckp sikit nie.....

apa yang korang tak puas hati dengan perempuan?? hah?? x faham sungguh~ kalau kitorang pakai tudung, kata kitorang bajet alim la... saja nk menunjuk la... klau kitorang x pakai tudung plak, kata kitorang ni sosial la.... ponpuan x elok la... apa kes?!! apa ingat lelaki tu elok sangat la nak cakap macam tu?? TOLONG SIKIT~~ setakat mulut BUSUK macam tu.... masuk neraka la wei~~ ish! menaikkan kemarahan orang tgh2 malam nie tau!! lelaki tu baik sangat ke?? korang jugak la spesis yang merosakkan pompuan... tau nk berseronok ngan pompuan, thn buang je diorang macam tu!! eeeeeee~ sape yang teruk skrg nie??? hah??? cuba ckp skit?? sapa yg teruk skrg ni?? laki ke pompuan??

sopan?? kitorang nk cakap ngan sopan pun salah ke?? hah?? perlu ke kutuk kitorang sampai mcm tu?? mmg ada sesetengah daripada kitorang yg pakai tudung on n off... salah seorang ye, saya!! ye, saya!! ada masalah ke?? nak kata saya ni pompuan jahat ke?? nak kata saya ni pompuan x guna ke?? eh~ tolong skit, setakat mulut je boleh cakap benda x bermakna tu sume, mata mengeluarkan penangan yg x seberapa tu, igt boleh dpt kejayaan dlm hdp la??? BODOH!~ u will never succeed! NEVER!!! ini namanya orang bodoh ngan bangang~ eeeee~ benci la lelaki yg tau ckp je!! x suka!!

although i do not know who you are.... bt, i juz hope, oh no!! i really hope that you will just shut ur F****** MOUTH and GO!!!~ dun ever n ever let me know who you are... if not, you will be the first person that i will hate in my entire life!!~

i hope the guys out there jangan nk perasan yg korang tu baik sgt ek.... tolong skit... memang i x sebaik mana... tapi, xde la sampai nk menjatuhkn maruah seseorang kt sini... tp, unfortunately, entah mamat bodoh mana entah yg telah membuatkn sya ni bertindak memarahi semua lelaki2 di sana.... mintak maaf la kt sesapa yg terasa tu ek... x sengaja... tp, igtla.... bukan lelaki je ada mulut ek... pompuan pon ada mulut gak... aga2 ar skit!!~ ok??? paham??

jealous???

lol~

apa maksud semua ini???

it doesn't mean that when someone is already together, then you can be closer to him or her.... can touch him or her more.... without concerning about gossip.... that is sooooo wrong.... i dun like the way that kind of people think... it's just sooo wrong.... is it so hard to admit that you are jealous??? is that soooo hard??? you can just say that, 'erm..... i'm jealous.... sorry' something like that... is that sooo hard??? i dun think so... it's just you who are making it hard... it's just you who doesn't want to admit it... and it's just you who are too sensitive... who is that person to you anyway??? no one right?? so.... what makes you sooo jealous?? it just doesn't seem right... why don't you think about it again.... you action is making me angry... and your action is making other's people life in confusion, anger and mess! think about it again before you try to do it.... make sure the idea of what you are going to do went through your brain before you do it! understand tat?? huh~ ii hope you understand that~~ thank you~~

i don't understand~

hmm....

why such small things can be such a big deal when it comes to you???

don't you feel tired with all this?? don't you feel annouyed when such thing happen more than one time???

seriously, i'm very tired.... why can't you just understand??? i've been taking care of your heart for too long... i am not dare enough to hurt you.... however, people will make mistakes after all... you should understand that.... yes, maybe this is the first time you are turn your back on me... maybe before this i've done something wrong that i didn;t realized.... yes, i can accept that... but, have you ever think that i'm hurt too??? have you ever think that how much you hurt me before this??? have you ever think of what i feel all this while??? have you??? we are best friends... yes... we are.... but, why does things turned out to be like this??? why do you have to show me that stubborness??? why???

i don't mind if you want to ask about him.... i don't mind... but, please.... don't take advantage on that.... you keep on asking about him.... whole day.... it's not that you can't ask me about him... but, there's a limit for that.... i'm his sister.... i'm not his bodyguard or something.... i deserve to have some attention too.... you should know that.... you can ask... but not 24 hours ask me about him... and only him!!! you will always open the conversation by asking me whether i'm fine or not, what am i doing... but then, after that, you will just ask me what he is doing, where is he, and everything is about him!!!!! if you are on my place, imagine what will you feel???? iam obviuosly tired and annoyed at the same time... but, i just keep quite to make sure that you are not hurt... but, you never understand what i feel, what i think... NEVER!!!!

you are childish... yes... and i accepted that... but, you're childishness became worse and worse.... and that childishness had hurt me little by little.... that childishness also made me annoyed little by little... why can't you just understand me??!!!is it so hard to understand me?? is it so heart to open up your heart and say that you forgive me??? i didn't mean it... it's not what i wanted to say to you.... it's just a split of tongue... why can't you just understand?? and... it's not that i don't want to tell you that i went back.... and it's not that you are not important to me!!! why do you have to make that kind of assumption?? why???? why can;t you just understand that i love you and i care about you???? why can;t you just understand??? WHY!!!!!!!!

haiz..... i don't kmow what to say now... i'm speechless.... i'm weak... and i'm hurt.... it's not that only you are hurt you know.. i'm hurt too... please bear in your mind.... why can't you just change.... at least a bit.... be a little bit understanding.... why??? haiz.... i hope you can change... please, push that childishness aside, be a woman now.... a mature woman... that's all i ask from you... that's all... thank you~

haircut~

after keeping my hair for months, finally, i made a decision to get a hair cut....

i went to macy saloon juz now.... and i had my hair cut.... i dun look much different... juz.... it;s much shorter now.... haha XD

after having a hair cut, i washed my hair... the person hands are cold... so, whenever she touch my neck, i'll felt a sort of electricity going through my body... haha XD
it's the first time people washed my hair... huhu~

anyway, my head is very light now.... i guess having a short hair is not that bad... having short hair is much easier...

i shouldn't have done that
i should've ignore it
like something i couldn't see
like something i can't see
i shouldn't have ever looked at you
i should've ran away
i should've acted like i didn't hear it
like something i couldn't hear, like something i can't hear
i shouldn't have listened to my heart

chorus:
you showed me love without words
you gave me your love without words
you made me hold my breath, waiting for you
but you ran away like that

without word, love leaves me
without a word love throws me away
what should i say next?
my only closed lips were surprise
coming without words

why does it hurt so much?
why does it keep hurting?
except for the fact that you aren't here
though everything is the same

chorus;
you showed me love without words
you gave me your love without words
you made me hold my breath, waiting for you
but you ran away like this

without words love leaves me
without a word love throws me away
what should i say next?
my only close lips were surprised

without a word my tears fall
without a word my heart breaks
without a word i will wait for love
without a word love hurts me
i zone out, i become a fool
because i cry as i look up the sky

without a word a goodbye found me
without a word a goodbye came to me
i couldn't even prepare to send you away
i think my heart was surprised
without a word it came

without a word it went
without a word it left
like the fever before
It'll just hurt for a while
only scars will be left in the end

tat's an OST from a Korean drama You're Beautiful...
i love this song very much because this song potrayed the sadness that people can't split out in words....
anyway, to whom in love, make sure that you and your lover are happy... my wish is with you guys....
to whom that are in the situation as if the song is, be strong.... one day, your true love will come to you by itself...

poems~

in literature class, we were asked to come out with a poem each for limeric structure and haiku structure... so, below are my poems...

LIMERIC~
chocolate is sweet,
bitter yet sweet,
life is fun,
adventurous yet fun,
both are fun and sweet.

merepek je kn?? hahaha XD
ada lagi satu...

HAIKU~
i dislike all cats,
they sleep, run, jump, scratch and bite,
but, they all look cute.

that's the truth...
i pernah kena gigit dgn kucing tau...
cakar pun ada...
dh trauma dh...
takut~~ T__T

rhyme??

ok... my friend juz said tis to me juz now...

sori naik lori,
bapak i takde lori,
u pikir-pikir la sendiri,
u buat i ternanti-nanti!

LOL~ XD XD
it's hillarious~
akibat daripada belajar literature....
RHYME GILER!!~
LOL~~~ XD XD XD

pissed!!

friendship...... is beautiful.....

i agree.........

bt, comparing your best friends??? is tat necessary??? like seriously, is tat NECESSARY???

i dunno tat girl... really dunno her.... u said tat she's a very gud friend... ok...i believed in you... bt, i never knew tat tat particular gud friend tat u r having nw will replace someone tat's way more u love tat her..... u replace your world best friend with a girl tat u juz knew few months ago??? is tat fair??!!!! is tat logic??!!! is tat acceptable???!!

now, i'm gonna say smthg... i dun accept it, n i can't even accept it!! it's not acceptable at all!! i dun care wad had got into your mind... i dun even care wad she said to u, wad charm she put on u, i juz can't accept it!! tat's too much!!

huh~ i juz dun believe ur new friend anyway... cuz, she doesn't look like someone tat i cn trust... u r juz pissing me off.. yes, i love u my best friend, bt, u really pissed me off~ and... i won't ever ever ever n ever forgive you if you ever hurt the people tat i love.... mark my words, N...E...V...E...R...!!!!!!~

college??

okay.... i'm an 18 years old girl... oh! it's new year already... thn i should be 19 now... hmm... well... i'm 19, yes, 19..... why do i feel like i'm old now?? ok... that's nott the point now... i'm juz saying that, i'm 19, and i'm studying in a college now...UiTM Shah Alam... i'm doing Foundation in TESL.. what is TESL?? you all might want to ask that cuz everyone does... ^^

TESL~ TESL is Teaching English as Second Languagel.. do i want to be a teacher?? HEll NO!!!~ i don't want to be a teacher... because i know that i can't be one... and my parents won't approve it too....

now, talking about college.... college life is fun.... because we get to know new friends... learn new things... get to learn how to be independent... get to go other places... more or less, like... more... FREEDOM~ yes~ more freedom~

i really love college life.... but... somehow, i felt that something's missing.... i'm not sure bout what it is... just.... i.... started to miss my school days.... lil by lil... bit by bit... and now, i really really miss those days when i was busy finishing my homework (opps! i never do my homework, i juz did some~ haha XD), the day i was busy fighting and quarreling with my friends, the day i was busy with co-curriculum activities, the day i went out for competitions with my friends, the day i spent my time in the classroom listening to my teachers, and the days i laugh, cried and jumped in the school.... it's such a splendid memories.... i just miss them sooooo much!!

no matter how much i love my college life now, i still miss my school life a lot.... because, i was with them for more than 5 years.... the bond between us can't be seperated that easily.... i just miss all of them very very very much..... i hope they miss me too~~ haha XD

so, to whom who wants to leave your school life early, think of it again.... school is where your memories lies.... school is where you learn, by yourself, with the help of your friends and of course, your teachers.... appreciate and spend your time wisely in school days because i'm very very sure that you will miss those splendid time one day just like i do~

to all my firends out there, please be healthy.... happy new year.... i hope that you all will have a gorgeous year in this 2011... and i hope that you all won't forget me~ have fun!!~ XD XD

1111~

yesterday was the first day in the new year....

i was 'trapped' in the house for about a week... i wasn't able to go out with anyone.... cuz, eventually my best friends aren't free... anyway, i managed to go our with atifa, karthi and sharrvind yesterday....

i went out at 2.30 pm with atifa... we went to town.... we walked and talked.... after a while, we headed to easy cafe and had something nice to eat there... after that, we headed bac to the town again... we went to pasar malam and then we shopped for some things.... it was fun.... it's quite some time i didn't see her... i miss her soooo much~ then we shopped till... erm... 6++.... thn, i went to see karthi and sharrvind at 7++~ we talked n laughed n talked n laughed... it was fun.... i didn't see them for.... a year i guess??? tat was long.... haiz... it's hard to get a chance to see them.... haha XD

after the long talked, i went bac home, i started to online... and i had fun in fb last night.... it was a mess... cuz, there were 3 person who were chatting with me... n thn, the comments in my status n wall post... n also i was busy writing my opinion on how i met a person and wad do i think about him/her through my status.... it was fun.... haha XD

anyway, i went through a happy new year~~

hope you all have fun!!~ XD